okay how do i start, well i'm confused, i've always liked girls,but since i was a kid i had the occasionally gay moments,i don't want to go over the details but i never felt gay and right after doing all these gay stuff i felt nasty like wtf did i just do and why, that's disgusting... anyway as i got a little older in my early teenage years, (i'm 21 by the way) i stopped having those thoughts and just kept living my life normal,like i said i've always liked girls and i was crazy about them and all i wanted was to fuck girls,i watched a lot of porn,all straight porn. i kissed and had sex wit a couple of girls in high school and i loved it, and then i met my ex girlfriend, when i was 16, and i felt in love like a sucker.well here comes the tricky part, during my relationship with her i cheated on her with girls, but twice with trannys like a quick bj that's it and it felt nasty afterwards.then maybe once every year i had some gay thoughts and masturbated to them but then again felt nasty.Now recently after 5 years of relationship my ex and i broke up , i've been trying to get back with her but she don't wanna and she has done some messed up shit that really hurts me.since all of these events i started having more and more gay thoughts i don't understand and now that i act on them they don't feel nasty they fell wrong but not nasty like before, now i find myself checking guys out and watching gay porn sometimes,most times it gets me horny but i can't orgasm with them because they feel wrong,other times i do orgasm and it's great and they don't feel as wrong but still they feel wrong and nasty deep inside .Point is i feel confused as fuck now, idk if this is a reaction to they emotional pain i'm going through, because honestly i feel dissappointed with girls i know they're not all like that but still,or idk if i was always gay and i'm just finding out. I really feel like i'm stright but then if i am why do i have these thoughts?? i really wanna be straight i don't worry about family and friends that much but i just feel like i wanna be straight. well that pretty much sums it up i'm sorry about the looong writing but i just feel like i have to write as much details as possible to get an accurate answer thank you so much.. and excuse my grammar my english it's not quite there yet
There's more to being gay than having sexual thought toward the same sex. Ask yourself: Would I want to be in a a relation with a guy? I f the answer is no, then chances are, you're straight. That being said, only you can figure out if you're gay. I know it stinks, but it's kind of something you have to figure out on your own.
