For all my life, I've been attracted to girls. I've had girlfriends, have had sex with girls, fantasized about girls, et to the cetera... However, in the past several years, I've started pleasuring myself to gay porn (exclusively), and have had sex with men (and enjoyed it a lot), and have really deliberated about my gayness, for lack of a better description... I would say that im gay, but when I'm out and about, I only notice women, and I never notice men. However, in the cozy confines of my aloneness, I watch only gay porn, and fantasize about having sex with men. Am I gay, bi, or what?
Try purposely looking at guys when your out see what happens .. you might be conditioned to looking at girls. Also I COULD BE WRONG, BUT I think its in all male genetic makeup to notice beauty n beautiful women
I'm learning that sex is very gray. It's not as black and white as I used to think. I'm sort of having the same experiences as you. Some of finding out about who you are is testing those things, like Lowkey said. Look at guys in public. Do you like anything about straight porn? What do you think about when you masturbate? Is having sex with women still stimulating? I was always aware of my attraction to guys and thinking about on my younger years, some friendships I developed that didn't last long were probably guys that I had crushes on. I didn't accept those things about myself until recently. I've become more interest in male and the male body. It's new, so I think the attraction to it is stronger because it's exciting. With that said, I'm just as aroused as ever with I'm with a female. I talk to some gay friends I have that say they have zero arousal toward females. That tells me that I fall in a different category. Also, think about what kind of porn you like. I don't care for penetrative gay porn, but masturbation and oral is what I'll watch. Sex isn't an all or nothing kind of thing. It's bits and pieces, here and there.
Aloha, Rusty I'm wonering if you should go cold turkey on the gay porn for two weeks and see what happens to your masturbatory fantasies or the direction of your inclinations. If you're questioning where you stand, this may be enlightening. Good luck. Milan
Thanks to all three you for your responses I am definitely going to try to look at guys while out in public and see if this does anything for me. I also feel that it's like what Lowkey said-my attraction to women may be due to being a guy and being conditioned to look at girls that developed by growing up in a predominately straight society or just due to being a guy Joey4-I used to watch straight porn all the time, and I would imagine myself having sex with women, but now watching straight porn does nothing for me...ever since I got with a guy (I bottomed), its like I have this feeling of "being with a woman would still be satisfying and would feel good, but it just wouldn't compare to being with a guy and bottoming"..and I watch all kinds of gay porn and get off to all of it...now, whenever I think of sex and having sex, I think of it so much more in terms of dominance and submissiveness, and not even so much in terms of guy and girl, or guy and guy, etc. I'm really thinking that deep down, I am attracted to guys but I just can't bring myself to admit it on the outside due to some sort of mental block...if I wasn't attracted to guys then I'm preeeetty sure that I wouldn't enjoy gay sex and watching gay porn And Milansmele, I'm going to try the going cold turkey thing and see how that makes me feel
