Okay this is my scenario. I see beautiful women everyday. I don't recognize beautiful men. Actually I don't view men as beautiful but rather only sexually entertaining. And its limited to there Dick and ass. That's all I really get turned on by So far I've had a couple gay experiences, I COULD NOT for the life in me get into the kissing aspect. I guess its because men heads disgust me, the texture of there short hair grosses me out, n also there just not visually stunning like women. Is this part of coming out? Will this go away? I liked it though, like Gettyng my Dick sucked by a dude. I have yet to fuck one in the butt though If a female wanted to have sex, I wouldn't turn it down. Idk if its an ego thing or an actual want. I think I want it, well actually I DO want to have sex its just its not arousing to the same level, its a 3/4 less, its there just not as much at all. but Id still want to fuck a girl when the chance arisesl I feel like Im emotionally available for women but not men. All in all I guess If I married a women something would feel missing but it would feel right at the same time. And the same goes for guys . It would feel right but then something would be missing
Taken from what you have stated here, it makes sense to say that you only like other men sexually and do not seem to be interested in romantic relationships unless that person is a woman, tell me; do your attractions seem to flow from one gender to the other on a consistent basis?
What do you mean flow? To one gender to the other.. N yeah you got the idea.. but its sort of like where do I go from here. I can't be happy till I'm happy and I'm not happy seeing beautiful women pass and give me attention cause there interested but I simply just don't have the drive.
I meant in terms of how you feel towards a gender, do you find yourself going to men on a certain time of your day then later in the day find yourself attracted to women? Bisexuals have explained these feelings as truth, and the biggest question is do you feel happy by yourself? If not, who do you think you'd be happier with?
Im learning to feel happy by myself, I'm not yet. I've been through alot of traumas, I have mental pain as well as chronic physical pain from past injuries, but I'm pushing through. I'm trying to quit my masturbation and weed habit. When I watch porn I like to see the girl get run over and dis respected, n get cummed on, which us wierd because it pains me at the same time to see girls get disrespected (by anyone but me haha) I like watching gay porn but I have to block faces out. Only rarely ill find a guy face attractive, usually cause they actually look like a girl lol.. Also, it changes I think yea, ill rarely check out guys, its always girls. But the attraction like physically in my penis like I said is like 70/30 men/women. Or 80/20.
Hmmm, strange; could it be that you simply have not met that right person who could probably help you figure it out? The domination aspect of porn regarding women is typically a fetish that quite a few people like; not all of them disrespect women, hell I'd love to be "mistreated" during sex, "abused" during sex so really has nothing to do with this. The fact that you block faces out to have basically the motions of the sexual homo-erotic acts could be a sign of something along the lines of "My penis tells me I like men Better" not be interested in men as you once thought, I honestly blame porn alot for these reasons because it can create expectations that you feel you'd love in reality but in fantasy do not enjoy them at all, which goes in congruent with your original post that it is hard for you to find anything else of the male body sexually attractive. Tell me this, try to think about the sex of men on men and tell me; how do you feel, turned on or turned off? If the latter; it could be expectations brought out by porn, also think back to masturbation habits, what did you think about? How did you feel about it?
To me it sounds like you know you're sexually attracted to men, but are having a harder time coming to terms with that attraction, reducing it to purely physical acts without the "trouble" of forming romantic connections. As far as noticing beautiful women, that could be socialization: we're raised to associate certain traits in men and women, and women learn that their value and worth as human beings are tied to their appearance; their goal is to be noticed. It's a common story, yours. The guys who say, "romantically interested in women, sexually in men" for the most part have compartmentalized their attractions, so the two are at odds with one another. Since a lot of them identify as bisexual, I call it the bisexual dilemma: what are you willing to live with? You've tried sex and romance with women, but only sex with men... suppose you find that last missing piece (romance), and found this is what you want and need in your life? There would be no turning back. What do you think of androgynous male models like Andrej Pijec, Darell Ferhostan, or Michael Hudson? I find a lot of my attractions at odds with the traits society values in men and women, so I definitely understand where you're coming from, to some extent. Also, I'd ask where you're meeting these men. If it's a purely sexual setting, then it's going to be tough getting to know them as people. Do you have any LGBT friends, family members, or associates?
