I don't think I can do this anymore

Your not a freak. Please don't feel suicidal you have a amazing life in front of you. There is no harm in having a crush on a guy. You are still young a lot of teens have feelings for the same sex. If your gay there is many people here on this forum including me who are willing to help you.

 

Hi there.
I know trying to figure out your sexuality is a bumpy, emotional roller coaster.
A lot of us here have also gone through similar things as you, being depressed from liking the same gender etc.
But don't feel alone at all and you aren't a freak. (*hug*)
Have you had anymore attractions to guys? If so, you could be gay or you could be bisexual.
Whatever the case is, you must not feel that you're a freak or a mistake etc. You are still you, and you must never feel that this changes you at all.
It may take a while for you to accept your sexuality but just know that we are here for you

 

Hi Not ok, and welcome to EC!

First off, don't worry about labels, a lot of confusion arises from these things. Labels should come with their own warning labels, such as: "use with caution".

For all the control we think we have over ourselves, we seem to have very little control over what we like and desire, especially in the realm of sex. You don't have to make any decisions yet about what you are, focus more on the person you like, no matter whether it's a he or a she.

Your crush is shocking merely because it's a he...think carefully why that is: do you give so much weight to what others think that you are repressing your own feelings? Try honouring your feelings instead, respect them a little, give them some room to grow within you just so you can see what happens.

I assure you that if you let the feelings be as they are, other things will become clearer to you. And just perhaps instead of hating what it is you may be, you may find that what you are is a beautiful thing, and worth living for.

 

Let yourself feel what you feel, that is how you can help yourself. Don't judge your feelings, they are what they are.

 

Yeah, what Englishlad said

Beyond that, and re your statement of being able to like anyone.

Assuming that by 'like' you mean 'be sexually or romantically attracted to regardless of whether they are male or female', then it's possible you could be bisexual or maybe pan sexual (which, as I understand it is someone with a broader potential range of attraction than bisexual people normally experience - if I'm wrong on this, someone please correct me).

Regardless, you're not a freak and there's nothing wrong with you.

Don't give up. And maybe stick around here for a while. EC is a pretty friendly and accepting place, and we're all here to talk and offer support if you need it.

Best,

Todd

 

It's not a race to figure yourself out. You are a complex and layered human being, like anyone. Not one part of any of that complexity is anything to be ashamed about. Liking boys is a scary thing when you don't choose to be that way, I know. I was into guys since I was a kid and only came out at 23. But I also like girls. I've dated them, loved them, and there's nothing wrong with that. I'm now dating a guy and that's okay too.

You're not a freak, you just might be bisexual. And that's okay too. There are so many wonderful things about guys and girls to appreciate and not a single one of them is worth feeling shame over. Not a single one of them is worth killing yourself over. It's okay to feel like you don't understand yourself. You found your way here though, where there are literally thousands of people just like you. And you admitted it to yourself. You can't imagine how big that first step is.

You could start by telling us what you're afraid of? You don't have to be a stereotypical gay guy just because you have he ability to appreciate good qualities in boys.

 

Hi Not OK...

First - they do not need to find out. So relax. It is in your power to be private and just avoid these idiots.

I am sorry to hear you are bullied - that really stinks.

You have plenty of time to work out what you are from a sexuality point of view. It sounds like you're not sure just now, so I'd give your self a break from the fear. Spend some time just working out your thoughts.

You can do this all in the privacy of your own head, or with support from others - including this site which has many people your age on it. I am sure they'd like to hear from you/ help you. This is a friendly place!!

 

Do you like him sexually? Describe more of your feelings to him.

 

How do you think about girls?

 

Trying to figure out and understand one's feelings and dispositions is a difficult task. There is nothing any of us can tell you right now that isn't already inside of you. You just need to calm down and take an honest look at who you are and how you feel. Even when it hurts or makes you feel uncomfortable you need to look within and just be with that feeling. Send love to the part of you that is hurting and for a moment imagine yourself embracing and incorporating the part of you that is hurting. If you find out that you do in fact really like other guys that's okay, imagine yourself happy in just such a state. Perhaps in time you'll find that it was just a brief phase and you're more interested in girls. That's okay too. Either way, you are only 16. I am 27 and didn't even begin doing this sort of work on myself till I was in my young 20s. You're gonna be okay regardless of what happens

Enjoy this relaxing 20 minute meditation

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jyy0ra2WcQQ

 

So you are also sexually attracted to girls?

 

Then I guess you're bi. Just don't feel bad about it, you have to accept it or you'll only hurt yourself.