So I had a good high school friend. After high school we both moved away. A few years later we both moved back and I saw him one day in a store and we reconnected. For the next decade or so we became very close. At one point we were roomates, worked together, went concerts and clubs together, played sports together, and vacationed together. We did everything together. He is straight I always knew that. He is married now with a kid a couple years younger than mine. We are still good friends. He is unaware of my sexuality tho I think he had an idea. Recently he seems to have gotten more homophobic, I think do to a gay uncle whose acted like a dick. Now I always told myself I turned off my sexuality when around my friends, that I could never have a crush on them. But lately I have been wondering if that is exactly what I had with him. Anyone had similar friendships? Crushes?