This is my 2nd time posting.I need to get this off my chest this place is my only outlet.I've been with my fiancée a man for 11 years.We have 2 children together I love him but have no desire to kiss,touch or have sex with him it's been like this for 3 years now.I often fantasise about being with a woman not just sexually but I find myself having romantic feelings for women I just meet usually ones that appear to be gay.I want to hold,kiss and be with them so bad when I was first with my partner I did those things with him but was also hoping to do the same with a woman.Those feelings passed but just before having my 2nd those feelings have reappeared since crushing over a new friend.Now I can't help to get excited around "gay women" or women I find attractive.Its become an obsession that I need to break I can't go a day without thinking about women it's so consuming,I think it's a lot more then wanting to experiment because its not just sexual it's more emotional something I don't have with my partner.
