Cannot accept sexuality

I know how you feel.. its really hard to accept it. For me it was so depressing I couldnt sleep, eat or do anything I enjoyed doing before. I kept thinking laying in my bed how everybody is expecting me to build a family, have kids, with a man, big house, everything is perfect. I always kept telling my parents its not gonna happen because I dont believe in those fairytales and I can live without man, but I thought someday I will meet a guy and I will be really happy. Yeah..had "crushes" for guys, it was awkward, no sparkles.. and I freaked out when I noticed my actions and thoughts around girls.. I NEVER noticed that.. I've done the same thing with attractive guys, I thought it would work, I mean they are smart, handsome, every girl wants it.. but in the end of the day I felt empty because it's not what I need.. I say think about pluses being who you are. It takes time but you will be really happy in the end If you need to talk, let me know :icon_wink Good luck (*hug*)

 

Hun,
It's not that easy to accept. Even when you do accept there is no turning back and that you are indeed a lesbian, there might be some days where you will sit there and think "life would be easier if I were straight". I know, because even though I have no shame or guilt when I tell people that I'm a lesbian, I still have those days. I know that men aren't for me. I've dated the greatest guys out there and still nothing happened. I'm for women and women are for me; and at the end of the day there's nothing I can do about that. If you feel like crying then let it out.....after a while, this will become old news and you won't feel as bad as you do now.
I definitely understand what you are going through. I've been out for three years and although things are definitely better I wouldn't say that they are perfect.
Everything did feel perfect though when I went out with the girl of my dreams....then, and only then, did it feel totally worth it.
Hugs

 

I used to feel the same way, but I don't anymore. I stopped hanging onto the "what its" and just allowed myself to feel what I felt for women. It was intense, exciting and fulfilling; something I've never felt for a man. I do have kids, but things did not workout with their father and it took a lot for me to walk away. I wasn't strong enough to walk away, but once I found the courage to accept being gay, everything else fell into place.

Imagine yourself living your life with a woman, how does it make you feel? Now, imagine yourself living your life with a man, how does it make you feel? I knew that I could not be with another man long term because I'd just be pretending to be someone I am not.

Perhaps, you should make a list of all the reasons why you want to be straight. And a list of all the reasons why you do not want to be gay. Let me know me what you come up with and may be I can help you.