Throughout my whole life I've never looked at a mans naked body and instantly got turned on... But for some reason women's body's always do the trick . Men's body's are just 'boring' or not as exciting. What's weird though is that I still managed to have male crushes and sexual Urges for certain men in the past. I even fell deeply in love with a guy and have had fantasies about him. What's also weird is that I'm only attracted to butch girls... To the point where I'd have fantasies about them as well. I've never had wet dreams about guys, but recently i had one about a (butch) girl and well.... It was great lol Now I think im falling in love with this girl and ever since I realized it , other guys don't turn me on much anymore. On the other hand part of me is still in love with the guy that I mentioned before and I'd still do anything (sexual) with him. ... But that's just for him. He's really the only guy that I could say I'm still iattracted to. I'm just confused .__.
Hello I'm no advising expert but here's what I want to tell you Do not feel the need to label yourself as Bisexual or Lesbian, or Straight or curious, or whatever. It's confusing. But I know you might want to.I, myself, have really been trying to label myself in order to .... I don't know, feel less alone in my awkward sexuality. Thing is, for some people it's not as obvious as for others. Anyways, if you really need a definition of what I read, I'd say bisexual with a preference for women. (PS : 'tis so easy to fall for a girl if you're not careful, muahaha. They're just too lovely.)
You could be a lesbian. However, what you said about male crushes and sexual urges could be important. You don't have to be instantly turned on by someone's body to be attracted to them, and it is perfectly possible to be bisexual but attracted to different genders in different ways. Another fun (read: incredibly frustrating) thing about being bisexual is that your sexual and romantic preferences can swing wildly over time. In my case, when I'm crushing on a girl, I have strong feelings for women in general and none at all for men, but when I'm not crushing on a girl, my feelings for men are, well, not stronger, but certainly more obvious than, my feelings for women. So you could be bi with a preference for women or a lesbian. It really depends on how much weight you want to put on your past feelings for men.
Hey, just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in what you are feeling. You sound a lot like I do and I identify as bisexual/fluid. I think you shouldn't worry about the labels and just do what you want to do. If you're attracted to a woman at the moment that's fine and if you happen to find a man that you like later on, that's ok too. I know it's a bit scary trying to figure this out, especially when you have feelings for both at different times - I do this as well. If I'm crushing on someone of one sex my feelings for the other sex don't matter as much, even my porn tastes change as well lol. Don't dwell on it too much and just go with it. Life is too short to be worried =) Good luck.
