Hello all im new here and in terrible need of some advice! I will start at the beginning i guess. The first i had any problems was when i was ten, when i tryed on pantys... i also tryed makeup and played around with barbies, it felt so taboo but satisfing. I also thought sexualy about my best friend once or twice. But after that told myself it was evil and did not think about it again for years. Time skip age 16, i had just gotten my own computer and the only thing on my mind was porn. One of the first things i looked up was transexual porn, and it got to the point that it was the only thing thst aroused me. The thing is, i always placed myself as the girl, and afterwards i would be discusted with myself. But finally stoped caring. Over the years i crossdressed a few times and some other non manly thin things i wont say lol but i allways saw myself as strait. Finally when i was 18 i lost my verginity, to a man... it was amazing but after i feltt so horrible that i never talked to hom again. It calmed down after thst anf i fell in love and got a gf, she moved in with me and things were great, we had sex all the time the first month and i nevet had a single gay thought. Although i admit i do not enjoy.it as much as the sec i had with the guy and.ofen do not finish and have to sneak and wach porn to finish. We talk alot about getting married and stuff and at first life was great. Then after two months the feelinhs and urges came back stronger then ever. The idea of being in a marrage no longer sounds grest even tho i love her. And have terrible urges to become as womanly as possible and hook up with guys. Im not that confortable in my body either, any thoughts?
Well first of all I wouldn't take the whole "I was big in to porn at 16" thing too seriously! You seem to have two issues here, one about your sexual orientation and one about your gender. Out of interest, what where the other 'non manly' things you did?
Sexual stimulation, that does not involve the penis.. lol you know cough dildos cough cough! And shaving private parts. There was a website i use to use all the time and i got messages from guys all the time. It felt good lol
hi, I wouldn't see the porn as a sign either. But you could be a straight woman. Can you see yourself as a woman? Does the thought of being addressed as a woman bring you joy? Only you can tell, we can't decide that for you.
Well the thing is im really not interested in sex with woman, im interested in sex with men... and have a womans body.
