Okay hey ! So i'm a girl and ive been unsure about my sexuality since summer time. This is because since i was in middle school i had always checked out other girls bodies and felt attracted to them, which was something i did unconsciously. I was always in denial about it and it had gotten so noticeable that people started pointing it out to me which made me sort of embarrassed because i didn't believe that i had any physical attraction to other girls. Anyway this summer i had started having sexual fantasizes about girls. This really confused me because i love boys. Anyway recently i started doubting the feelings i have for boys. Even though i like them i just cannot seem to go out with one. For example, i would have a huge crush on a boy for months but if they seem to reciprocate the feelings for me and ask me out i would become disgusted by them. Can you please tell me why this is? Like i really want to be like the other girls at my school with boyfriends but i just cant seem to actually go out with a boy. I don't want to kiss them or have any physical contact with boys either but they still are extremely attractive. Do you think its because im not ready for a relationship? But with a girl i can't really see myself in a relationship either but i do want physical contact. So what does this make me and what should i do? Thanks so much xx.
It sounds like you like girls and not guys. And that you want to like guys but not girls. I think girls can be hot and I get embarrassed and shy around them, but I would never want to date them or have sex with them. Idk what to say about that. The human mind is weird.