soo im in high school and ive been big time attracted to girls since day one, but a bit under a year ago i started to realize i have an interest in guys as well, i started to realize this about a month after i went soft while getting head for the first time but i just assumed it was because i was nervous, i can watch straight porn no problem and gay porns good to i just have a harder time finding vids i can really get into, but i get hard more easily when thinking about guys and looking at pictures of guys compared to girls, girls in person still always make me hard and i make out with a lot of them and still enjoy and i still really like fingering them and stuff while doing so like im not just dissinterested while with a girl, but ive been avoidong situations where i need to use my dick such as head or us having sex because i dont want to go soft again because rumours would spread that i was gay because i went soft for the second time, alot of chances to go farther with girls have come up and i have to not do it everytime which ia really annoying because id be super hyped if i had sex but i just dont wanna go soft again, i cant keep avoiding it for long im bound to get in a situation where ive gotta do something more with a girl soon and id like to know your guys thoughts on do you think ill go soft again or stay hard
It could just be nervousness/anxiety causing you to go soft down there. That happens to many people of many orientations, sometimes regardless of who they're with. As long as you know the truth, others could speculate about your sexuality as much as they want to. That might be a bit hard to hear, but... I don't think it's healthy or fair to you to have to live in fear of what others think. Live as you would if no one would judge you (To a reasonable extent); you may find yourself feeling happier and more free as a result.
yeah im hoping its just anxiety ive been depressed for a while now thinkingg about how badly the next few years might turn out if i have to come out of the closet but if im bisexual i would be insanely excited on life sometimes i feel like im gay in denial then other times i feel like im definitely bisexual
I know it might not be what you want to hear, but you still have time to figure things out. If you are still in high school, you have plenty of time to detirmine what is going to work for you. A lot of people, myself included, have had issues with anxiety and not being able to perform when the time was right. Take a deep breath, go slow and see what works and feels good.
