I'm 21 years old and a virgin, and I've been questioning my sexuality for 4-5 months. For as long as I can remember, I really like girls, I can remember that I used to be nervous when talking to girls, or when I was teased with them. I easily get an erection when I see sexy women on T.V. especially when they have softcore romantic scenes. During my high school years, I learned about masturbation and porn have been fantasizing a lot about women, and the thought of having to touch their private parts and having sex with them easily gave me an erection. I only have 2 romantic relationships, but it did not last long and did not result to sex. During college and up to now, I have not been into any of romantic relationships and my relief for releasing my sexual tension for years is masturbating to straight and lesbian porn a lot, but along the way I started to notice that I'm not having sexual arousal as easy as before, but I just shrugged it off my mind. For years I've been sure that I was straight until one day I saw advertisements of half naked men, and a quick thought came to me, "Did I just find that guy hot?", "Did I just find that guy handsome?" and I started to get nervous and question my sexuality. Since then I started to notice members of the same sex, and my interest on women gradually started to decline. As far as I could remember I purely have straight thoughts. I have never watched gay porn, I'm repulsed to the idea of watching it. I read from other forums that having poor track record in dating and non-lasting relationships could very well be a sign that I could be gay. What are your thoughts about this? Could it be that I really am a repressed homosexual?
This sounds very similar to my own experiences. It does feel a bit strange sometimes, doesn't it? Well, I don't know how much help I can be but I would recommend just taking some time to think about your sexuality (as you probably are already, sorry). You could be bisexual, homosexual or perhaps just a little bi-curious. It's really hard to say as only you can figure this out. Speaking for myself for a minute, I definitely am attracted to men but always considered myself straight until a few months ago. I really get turned on by lesbian porn and am repulsed by the men in heterosexual and gay porn. I find that I get attracted to guys but most of my thoughts are still straight. So, for me, it was pretty confusing suddenly being attracted to guys but eventually I decided that I was. Basically, the only advice I can give is to reflect upon yourself and, eventually (emphasis on it potentially taking a while, by the way), it will get clearer. Good luck!
