im really confused about my sexual orientation. every time i see guys being naked or half naked i feel like i want to have sex with them and all the sexual desires that a woman could have. (still virgin). i love watching gay porn though. on the other hand, i tried watching lesbian porn but it really gives me the feeling of disgust and even close my eyes when i see them climaxing. one thing that would make me confuse is that im really shy when i meet pretty and sexy girls. i think of kissing and caring and i want to be their girlfriend but i cant really stand it when i think of having sex with them. i am overweight and maybe that could probably make me realize that i am insecure of their bodies, having a lot of boyfriends. BTW, id never been with a man or woman. i just need attention. there is a time that i told some of my friends that i am lesbian just to make them amaze how could i become lesbian in spite of being so girly girl. i do sports like martial arts just to amaze everyone that i am pretty as hell. like i want them to say that i am so damn sexy to become a black belter. so plss. help me to figure out if i am bisexual or straight. right now, i want to have sex with guys but i want to have a romantic relationship with a girl, who would care for me. but no sex at all. HAHA. BTW, i have this feeling of anger towards guys regarding of cheating to us girls specially i caught my dad cheating my mom..i really didnt forgot it. and this anger towards my brothers who physically hurt me when i was young and all of those guys who broke my heart. they are so damn CRAP and STUPID people. sorry for the long and chaotic story of mine. :bang:
I think our feelings and emotions are chaotic, and they can never be solved with neat little solutions. I'm dealing with a very similar situation like yours right now. At first, I wanted to find a quick fix and simply get over it. Then I realized that I just need to give it time and let my emotions/preferences flow naturally by removing one's mental hindrances. As a guy, I also have lots of insecurities about my body (even though, like most guys, I never like to admit that and typically put on a facade of normalcy). When I look at hot men, it's always a combination of good looks and fit bodies that attract me, and causes a sudden urge to touch their bodies and even kiss them. Like you and many other guys, I guess what I'm looking for is a little attention and intimacy. That's why many guys of my age like to go to the gym and work out like crazy to look good due to that constant inferiority complex. Send me a PM if you like and we can talk more. You are definitely not alone...
