After all this time (one year of coming out to myself) I still question if I can really be gay. I know labels are not important but even without them I can't decide what I am. I run a lesbian blog, I've been to countless LGBT meetings, I see women almost daily who I'm attracted to and yet I question my feelings. Partly because I've no idea what they are and how strong they are but I think mostly my doubts come from being afraid of myself and my emotions. I've come out to many people and the more out I am the more doubtful I become. I know that's not that uncommon but it still bothers me and so does being out to basically anyone who asks because I feel like with going to all these meetings & telling people that I'm gay there's no going back. I feel trapped like this is it. Which is not true because I don't have to define myself so rigidly but I feel a bit claustrophobic with being exposed and out. I don't come out to just anyone and obviously I feel comfortable enough to do that now so that's not really the problem, it's just this whole 'there's no going back' feeling which makes me question myself even more than I normally would.
What if you tried the label of homoflexible, which I take to mean "gay but okay with not boxing myself in indefinitely?"
