Hi everyone, I'm new to this site, but ill get straight (lol) to it. I'm a 24 year old black male in college. My whole life I have always liked girls physically (boobs butt etc) and emotionally. But over the last year or so I've been very confused on where my sexuality stands. I've always had an OK love life, but recently it seems that every girl i talk to doesn't seem to like me, its depressing because it makes me think there's something wrong with me. I started to think back to when I was younger and I have always been a very emotional person (i used to get made fun of alot and cry alot) a little feminine. Also I don't have the natural aggressive/ambitious qualities of many black males. I have always been kind of a homophob, but also curious on what makes people turn into a homosexual (whether its from birth or developed). Also I am addicted to masturbating to porn with large boobs, titty fucking, and futanari hentai , I love boobs and futanari is nice because its two pairs of boobs(I think the real version is gross, I just like the hentai), but why do i need to see the penis to get off? When I have thoughts of two men doing sexual acts it makes me cringe, but why do they occur in my head so often??? My mom used to think that i had ADD, but we never got it tested, so I'm wondering if its just my mind responding to not having any success with women??? I would really appreciate feedback on this, and advice. And once again, I am new to this site, and this is my first time discussing this with anybody so if I happened to say anything offensive I apologize.
Hi and welcome! Ok, so my angle on this. I don't think it sounds as though you've got a significant same-sex attraction, since you never really mentioned an attraction to guys in your post. In terms of your porn watching, two points on that to think about. One is that you're not into gay porn or the like (from what I can tell) and two, what you watch in porn doesn't always correspond to your real-life orientation. Take a look on EC and around the web and you should be able to find gay guys who prefer straight porn, lesbians who prefer gay porn etc. You did say you've liked girls all your life, so that's probably enough to say that you're definitely not gay, and there's not much to say that you like guys. Also, it's not unheard of to be attracted to penis without being attracted to guys/the person it's attached to. It can be a fetish in some people. As to your characteristics, I don't think it's a big reason to think you're not straight. Sexuality doesn't do much to determine characteristics given everything I've seen on here. There are some proper macho guys who are gay, lesbians who are more feminine... basically just because you don't have the stereotypical "traits" of a sexuality it doesn't mean you can't have that sexuality. My thoughts are that you're straight, maybe with a little curious thrown into the mix but essentially straight still. One last thing, my advice is to find ways to deal with the questioning, since it can begin to dominate your thoughts and get a little depressing on occasion. Just remember it's not all that important (in the grand scheme of things) and you don't need an answer immediately to be happy. Hope this helps, any other info is welcome
Thanks Sam, like i said its been tough. I'm glad I found this site because I really don't have anybody to express this stuff to, and its really just been controlling my thoughts. Also since I was confused, I didn't want to come out to someone only to realize that I wasn't really gay.
First of all none turns gay, there is no such thing as turning gay. Well a lot of the guys who have the futa, transexual, dick fascination are often in the straight side of things, even though this could suggest some bisexuality. Gays dont like boobs though so yeah I dont think you are gay. Personally I enjoy the netorare hentai the most, whatever and I am qustioning things myself.
you can have a gay side and like boobs. sometimes,at times i fine boobs a turn on.. sometimes i turn straight it seems
Whatever, I suggest trying some girl on girl porn and some guy on guy porn to see what arouses you, and try to fantasize about having straight and gay sex. Hentai isnt really an indication of sexual orientation..
