Hi, Im a guy in his twenties who's experienced anal play in the past. I did this with some objects while masturbating. Since it was a long time ago i can remember watching porn while doing it but i can't remember if i was fantasizing about a guy's penis in my anus or whether i was just focusing on the anal stimulation and jerking of off to the women in the porn scenes. I've been straight all my life, never had any attraction on romantic or sexual level towards men, always fell in love with girls and never have fallen in love with a guy. I want to marry and have kids with a woman. I have a wonderful girlfriend which i love to death. I could never picture myself actually having sex with a guy or have a relationship with a guy. I've also been diagnosed with severe Sexual orientation OCD by my psychiatrist (Fear of being or suddenly becoming gay). I'm currently on medication, i'm not homophobic aswell. However this thing in the past still disturbs me, since i cant remember my complete situation. If i did it probably was a one time only since i always fantasize about women when i masturbate, watch straight porn and like i said i still feel emotionally and sexually attracted to women. However this still bothers me because i cant remember what i thought at the moment while mastubating and anally stimulating myself. I always believed that if you've never fallen in love with a guy and like girls you're straight. Would having a one time fantasy while anally stimulating myself be some kind of indicator or something? My girlfriend had a real life same-sex experience and did enjoy it but considers herself straight cause she told me, i have never fallen in love with a girl and only fell in love with guys so i can't be gay or bisexual. But lets get back to me. What if i had a fantasy of a guy doing it to me, when i was anally stimulating me with an object and masturbating to straight porn and focusing on the woman? Does that make me gay or bisexual or something?
Certainly not! If you don't feel any emotional attraction towards guys and don't see yourself dating or even sleeping with one then you're completely straight.
Many straight guys like anal stimulation aslong as you cant see yourself being with a man or sleeping with a man then you are straight ^_^
thats not true, what these people above me are implying. the fact is, if your enjoying the thought of a guy fucking you, or sucking his dick, or something along those lines, and its making you hard/turning you on when you think of it 'openly', key words are 'thinking of it openly', then there is in fact attraction even if you don't want to be with a man. if someone is in denial, they won't think of being with a man, they'll create there own detours that block off the sexual or romantic attraction from entering the thought process entirely... thats what happens when people have been conditioned for so long. just a little perspective from a bisexual who leans gay i want to marry a girl, and have children, but i realize there are some feminine guys with longish hair that are almost are girls that catch my eye physically, and id probably be better off with one of them in the long run because sexually im more turned on by men. it isn't to say i think woman are beyond beautiful, woman are a fuckton more beautiful then men honestly, everytime i see a beautiful woman who wants my D it saddens me because i can't recipricate. but what I really want is just to cuddle with them and kiss them! that turns me on as far as woman..
so youre saying im in denial? lol.. like i said i dont wanna be with a man, when i picture having sex with a man it grosses me out, i looked at gay porn i didnt get excited or anything. Like i said i cant remember if i actually had the thought, but even if i did, does 1 fantasy makes you gay against my million fantasies about girls? I've also been diagnosed with OCD like i said aswell about my sexual orientation. I don't look at men like oh i want to go to bed with them or oh i would like a relationship with them and i've never fallen in love with them. So if i can't picture myself in both ways in real life, how does that make me gay or in denial. Besides i've fallen in love with girls and my current girlfriend is becoming my soulmate in every aspect. I must say i was in puberty back then and maybe the idea of an object in my anus madce me stereotypically think that it was someone's penis. But like i said i can't really remember. If in my whole lifetime i've never had an urge to have sex or a relationship with a guy and never had feelings for a guy, i don't think that's gay in my eyes personally. Everyone has their fantasies right, like my girlfriend even had a same-sex experience and still considers herself straight.
Ow yea and i don't get hard on's when looking at naked guys or gay porn or anything, it doesnt do anything for me, yet when i watch naked girls i do feel excitement and longing to have sex with them.
I thought in denial ment: Always had attraction towards men, feelings/crushes for men, aroused and excited when looking at naked men, wanting to be with a man, no attraction towards girls or wants to be with a girl and still denies he's gay and is afraid of what people might think if he comes out. My situation: Always liked girls, had crushes on girls, fell in love with them, love sex with girls, want to share my life with a girl, get excited looking at naked girls/straight porn If i sit next to my girlfriend on the couch and im horny, or sometimes when i'm not even that horny i get a boner in seconds. She can't even handle my libido. When i see her vagina i get turned on and want more. When i look at naked men or gay porn which i tried testing, it did nothing, no arousal, excitement no nothing. I got no longing or urge to be with a man or have gay sex or a gay relationship because simply that's not me. Due to my OCD i sometimes get unwanted images and get grossed out immediatly aswell. My turn on's go further then your turn-on's for women Lowkey. I never had feelings for a guy emotionally or sexually, i doubt that one fantasy in my insecure puberty makes me gay/bisexual or in denial.
I kinda posted 3 posts which shouldv been 1, but didnt knew a moderator has to check the posts first so i thought something went wrong, anyway then i misunderstood my bad. I just wanted to know if a mere fantasy which i don't even know if i actually thought about that at the time, means anything. I'm not going to repeat the things i said but i've always been straight, altho that thought bothered me so i launched my question here ;p. It's mostly also because of my obsessive compulsive disorder involving my sexual orientation that i like to know if this means anything compared to my always lived straight life.
kinda sounds like you've answered your own question? also.. fuckton? I don't believe that is a legitimate system of measurement -_-
