So first of, helloooo. This is my first post. I'm going to bed, but I'll be more active after my day. But, I stumbled across this site, and I genuinely think this is a solid place to maybe get some help sorting some things out. I've identified myself as bisexual, and an abusive ex forced me to come out to my family, amongst other atrocities. However, it was a huge fiasco at that point, but since then those that I came out to have discarded it as just being something not to be believed, and that it's something that they probably misheard. I've been with both males and females, and both are okay. However, my experiences with females were always more enjoyable, and they always seem a lot more second-nature than with guys. For the longest time, boys didn't even pique my interest in the slightest. I just saw them as friends, and anything further repulsed me to a degree. Heterosexual porn doesn't do much, however, lesbian porn is just lovely. I'm questioning whether I at least lean more to the gay side than anything at this point, and I'm honestly not sure how to go about it. I understand labels aren't necessary or even something that should be put upon people, but I'm honestly just trying to sort myself out. Boy or girl, I know I don't care much for having children. I only ever want to adopt one girl. So even the reproducing and marriage urge isn't there for me. The only reason I'm having major issues, is because I'm afraid to come out to anyone again. It got shut down so terribly the last time, and my family said it's the worst thing to have happened to them. Since then, I've done far worse, but still. I'm tired of being viewed as the bad egg. What would be the best way to sort things out, or what are your opinions? Thank you.
