Since i've been dealing with questioning myself for months now as you can see in some of my other posts i've made on here i was just wondering what would be some signs of being indenial of being gay or bi and if i am indenial?
hey i was in denial, still kinda accepting it.. havent really reached into the gay community yet so im still lonely, n since im not open to 9/10 of people i show some symptoms like im lying to people... i had some serious symptoms though... honesty gave myself like PTSD from bugging out so much and not just accepting it. i was normal like everyone else.. for example, the stress tore the warm blanket i was wearin n all the coldness froze me. its not limited to just in my experience: 1. possible serious disgust towards woman 2. anxiety around woman 3. feel like your making awkward eye contact. 4. not feeling anything when a girl makes a move on you 5. unfocused, depression, anxiety, confusion, paranoia, pyschosis, ocd like symptoms, sexually unsatisfied. 6. seeing beautiful woman and getting depressed instead of super happy
Agreed. I hung on to my now ex-boyfriend for a while after realizing I was attracted to a woman for quite a while before I was ready to admit that attraction actually meant anything. I had to be "straight: because I had been with that boy for 3 years.
How would you know if you were actually attracted to the same sex or just making yourself think you are attracted to them
When I was in denial, I was completely convinced that I was straight. Nothing anyone could say could possibly change my mind because "I'm not gay. I'm straight." If there was a list of symptoms about being in denial and I matched every one, I would still say "I'm straight." So, I guess when I realized I was in denial was when I sort of realized I wasn't straight if that makes sense. I started being honest with myself and asked myself, "Am I really straight?" I legitimately googled "hot guys" and "hot girls" and was like, "Woah I like looking at the guys a lot more. I must not straight." Obviously I'd had thoughts of being gay before doing that and acceptance took longer, but that was when I first actually stopped denying not being straight. ---------- Post added 20th Nov 2013 at 12:02 AM ---------- Try to question yourself in a neutral way without fear of judgement based on your answers. When you're out in public, who do your eyes wander to? Ask yourself what you find attractive about girls/guys? Who do you most often fantasize about? Things like that helped me a lot.
