Here we go, the big question that's been haunting my existence since I first started thinking about anybody: Am I a bisexual man? I know two things: First, that I am in fact male. And second, that I like females far too much to be completely gay. And that's when things get murky. As I said in my introductory thread, I can notice when a guy or a girl is attractive, and as far as being with either in a relationship, I'm not opposed to the idea. But how do I know that makes me bisexual? I've had girlfriends and enjoyed our time together, but I've never had a boyfriend, so regardless of what porn I look at, be it videos or still pictures, or what I think about when I'm horny and need to masturbate, how can I be sure I'm actually bisexual and not just bicurious or straight but comfortable enough in my sexuality to admit to being turned on by the thought of having sex with another man? For the record, I'm as attracted physically to effeminate guys, convincing crossdressers and those who are just put together in a way they could easily pass for girls, and transexuals as I am actual girls, while the more masculine, athletic, jock type guys generally don't do anything for me. For all I know, this just means I'm straight enough to get by in a still closed-minded society and all I'm really attracted to on the physical level is femininity in all it's varied, wonderful forms. And my out status? 'Only people I want to know'? That's because I'm not sure myself, but even if I was, I'm not of the opinion that the whole damn world needs to know what I do in bed with whom, just the people in my life that matter most to me that I feel need to know. Don't get me wrong. If you're the sort who gets your vindication when everybody and their mother knows, more power to you, but me? I'm far less likely to enjoy all the attention making such pronouncements brings. Being introverted is strange like that sometimes.
