I have no idea what I am doing. I'm usually not someone who has much trouble with anything in my life. My friends know me as the one who seems to have their life together...and I usually do. I am a closet gay men, and I guess I've always knew I was gay, but I didn't really think about it too much. I just want to finish college, and then think about it. But recently I've found myself really interested in this other guy. He is just overall a really good/awesome guy. I don't think I need to elaborate anymore then that. I know him, but I really want to get to know him on a deeper level. We are getting there I think. I want to talk to him everyday, and when I don't see him that day, or don't get a Facebook message, I feel very down. Which SUCKS...because I'm known as the bubbly, fun, optimistic, never a downer type. I don't show my feelings, but it sucks. This guy told me he has a girlfriend, but I don't think anyone know that other then me. I want to believe this is just a cover up, because I feel like there might be some chance he COULD be bi....it might be on the lower end, but there is some chance I think. I think he know I am gay. Every time I see him, he's always teasing me like touching me secretly, ex: my butt. He's always winking at me, even in church. He has a great personality, and overall act very manly. He's practically good at every single sport. He's an introvert, but has an extrovert appearance. He's extremely good looking, works out all the time, and is so humble. I am so attractive to him. I don't know what to do with my feelings. Should I just ask him if he's more then just straight? sorry for sounding so mumble jumble. I didn't know where I was quite going with this. ---------- Post added 25th Nov 2013 at 12:42 AM ---------- I guess I should give some background on myself too. I am a sophomore at a university right now. All my life, I've always been someone popular I guess. I am quite well known this university I'm at. I am very involve on campus. I'm actually on the executive board for a club this guy is in. He is older then me thought by a couple of months. I am actually Homecoming Price this year at a 26,000+ student body.....just to demonstrate how I am not just some weirdo obsessing over a guy.
To me it sounds like you are not unsure at all. You sound like you like this guy and want a relationship with him.
