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Sexuality Question

Discussion in 'Sexual Orientation' started by Monika the Diva, Dec 1, 2013.

  1. Monika the Diva

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    I want to ask anyone here if this sounds absurd.

    When i was growing up, I was very overprotected. I've been thinking about my past and how things went. Now growing up i like girls a lot but I was always EXTREMELY shy but as an adult i wasn't much different.

    As an adult I self-analyzed myself I realized something, when i was a young-boy at the age of 4 i was analyzed by a psychologist and i was told that i was effeminate. But in Chile at the time it was forbidden to be a homo-sexual, those that were gay were mocked and bullied. My dad at the time said "He didn't want any fa***ts." So i my behavior was "corrected". For many many many years i was someone i wasn't. After my mom broke the news to me after i came out to her and i told her that identify as female. She revealed that story about me.

    In the meantime, i can finally be happy and forgive myself because it wasn't my fault. Now the that i am beginning my slow rebirth. Now i can begin to love myself. Because apparently "how can you love someone if you don't love yourself." With that in mind, now i am ready to begin to have relationships. Here's my question, i am still attracted to women. At this moment, i haven't found a man that i would want to date. Now i won't completely rule that out in dating men but i don't know what to do. How do i begin my new chapter?

    If anyone has any insight or anything to add please let me know.