Unsurprisingly I am so confused, I do not even know how to start this. Not even a year ago, I had begun questioning my sexuality. Never in my whole life had I once even thought of even possibly being anything but straight. I had the whole religious back ground of schooling. It was practically programed in my head that it could not be possible. Now I am not even sure what triggered me to start questioning. Anyway, I had dated a man once, though it did not last long. The whole relationship was awkward, to say the least. We never went on a date, even though he offered and I denied simply because I did not feel comfortable. Most of the time we played video games and eventually after a pregnancy scare, I stopped talking to him completely. That was about two years before I even questioned my sexuality.Though it was one of the major factors that made me lean away from the thought of being straight. Recently, I have met a girl through a friend. It started out strange for me, since I found myself flirting without even thinking about it. A little more than 7 weeks ago, we went on our first date. She is a amazing woman and a publicly out lesbian. Before I started dating her, I was completely positive I was a bisexual (though things never work out that easily). Yet now, I have been having doubts. Things in the relationship have begun getting more serious. I have reached the point where I am practically self-sabotaging the relationship by ignoring her and just being plain mean. I think it is just because I am afraid to discover that I am a lesbian or if I am something else entirely. If anyone has any advice or personal experiences that relates, please respond.
