Biggest factor in determining sexuality? Fantasies, attraction, kissing, or what?

I may be getting too caught up in labels here, but honestly my sexuality is kind of freaking me out. To the bisexuals out there, does this sound like you?

I've hooked up with a girl and two guys in the past week, and got hard and finished with all of them.

I kissed two guys, and realized I can't stand to touch, rub, kiss, or suck another guy. In fact I gagged when I tried to suck one guy (and not in the good way.)

I like rubbing and kissing girls bodies more, and eating pussy is my favorite sexual activity.

I went over to meet a couple and fuck this guys girlfriend, but she wasn't there and I ended up topping him for the first time, and liked it.

But I had always fantasized about being a bottom (and sucking dick), but both sucked dick in real life.

When I'm with girls I fantasize about guys.

But when I'm with guys I fantasize about girls. I even watched lesbian porn while letting a guy suck me.

I think I'm bisexual, but I thought guys couldn't "actually" be. After I hooked up with one gay guy, he told me he didn't think I was gay. He also said your sexuality is about who your want to kiss, touch, and be with. And I've gotta admit for me it's women. I guess when I scroll through craigslist I have started to kind of ignore the m4m posts...

But how am I supposed to get a girlfriend now, if I want to be truly in love with her I have to be totally honest, and if I tell her I fucked a dude then what will she think?

I've also always had submissive fantasies. Then like overnight they became dominant ones.

Is your sexuality about who you'd rather kiss, fantasize about, fuck, whack it to pics or videos of (bc I watch lesbian and gay porn, but can only get off to pics of women.) like which one is the most determining factor?

What the heck is going on. :bang:

 

Thanks for getting back to me pride. Well in terms of looking at on the street, kissing, spending the night with, and creating a family bond with, I truly believe I desire women in my heart. I actually almost wonder if I desired guys because I'm a kind of lazy person, and men are a lot easier to get with. But now that I'm having more confidence and experience with women, and it's becoming easier to hook up, I feel I'm more into them now.

As for fantasies, many times they are either bi or with a woman, but hardly ever gay these days.

I don't think I want to come out as bisexual though, because most people will think I'm lying, or if they don't I feel that they'll just look at me as some selfish hedonistic asshole (which I might actually be :/)

 

That they'll have a nagging thought that their man is just gay and will leave them one day and/or will be grossed out

 

I do but I've also had nagging thoughts that I have cancer, diseases, am inadequate, and some other thoughts.

I am figuring out myself right now, but honestly it feels more forced with guys. When they kiss me I just want to push them off, when they tease me I don't get hard, it's almost like I don't want to hook up with them but I indulge them. I'm also not attracted to them I guess, I don't like playing with a mans body.

But with girls I get soft sometimes during sex. Unless it's hot lol. I also love going down on a girl more than anything, and I have a bit of a foot fetish with girls? Idk. Another thing is when I have like a "crazy sex rush" and browse craigslist (I might be a sex addict) I end up skimming over the men and go straight to looking for women, and if there aren't any I log off.

If I had to give up one sex right now it would probably be guys...

But the fact I even have had sex with guys makes me confused. I should also note I grew up exclusively attracted to girls, like I always google imaged "naked wwe divas" jo'ed and cleared the history lol