:help: I am a 29 year old female who has been straight all her life. I had a few high school boyfriends and one serious boyfriend - we were together for 8 years and he called it off 14 months ago. Since splitting with him I slept with a couple of guys but for the past 5 months I haven't been with anyone and have started questioning my sexuality. I find myself looking at girls, only occasionally, wondering what it would be like. I've looked at lesbian porn a couple of times and have enjoyed it. I enjoy straight porn too. I have a very close friend that lives 6 hours away but we talk on the phone daily and SMS throughout the day. I have started to feel "something" different. She ended her relationship with her boyfriend around the same time my relationship ended so she is straight. We quite often tell each other we love each other - and I know it is only an expression because we are really good friends - but I almost feel like I mean it in a greater sense - like I am falling in love. I am questioning my sexuality, mainly because of this friend and the feelings I am developing. I am becoming very fond of her. But is it just good friends or do I want something else? I am really confused! Am I rethinking my sexuality - could I be a lesbian? Or, given what me and my friend have been through over the last 2 years, we have shared many tears and tantrums and good times, do we just love each other a lot and have an amazing bond? I can't help but feel like I could be with her and I don't feel odd writing this and putting it out there. I am just really confused and wanted some advice before I turn myself inside out and make a wrong choice to do anything about it. (I have read pages on the internet but haven't been able to work it out from the info I have read). Even if I do discover I am a lesbian, I don't think my friend would hook up with me. As far as I know she is straight - she has had boyfriends, but so have I. Any help greatly appreciated. Thanks. :help:
just because you like one friend and like some porn does not suddenly make you lesbian remember you have liked guys all this time - and unless you never go back to guys ever again - it is more likely you are either just lonely and liking this one friend - or possibly discovering that you were always really bisexual and now just becoming open to it. if you like go ahead and keep talking to her though and try to explore. (as an aside many lesbians find lesbian porn comedic) most of the performers are straight and it is directed/filmed/created by me and really made for men.
