As the title says, I feel like I am closer to knowing my sexuality. A couple of hours ago I saw a thread about demisexuality. Demisexuality seems to fit me better than asexuality does. I think I might be pansexual but as I've never been attracted to anyone I can't be sure. I live in a small town so there aren't many people to be attracted to (I can't think of the words I want). I constantly have stories running in my mind. Mostly stories that I would love to write down and have published. But I also have imaginations of different futures. Usually, in these futures, I'm in a relationship with someone. In the past year or so it has been a woman. At first she was cis-gendered, pre-op trans-gendered, then cis-gendered again. There are a couple of versions of my relationship with her. I haven't imagined being with a man at all during the past year. I have tried to masturbate to pictures of women. Sometimes I get excited. Mostly I just feel like I'm objectifying them. I do get excited when I imagine women touching me. Sometimes I just look at a It took me a couple of months to realise I hadn't looked up any pictures of men. I had decided to look up pictures of men and women in order to help along the figuring out process. I'm glad I learned the term demisexuality.
