Im 24"genderfluid-birth female". I was sexually abused by my father as a child, but then went to a loving home for the rest of my teens I was always "bisexual" (even before the abuse) but never questioned my gender (I know thats separate and Im going to make a separate post about it) Obviously, the past is done and I am now who I am. I always knew I was bi and crushed on guys and girls in HS. I had a 2 year rship (lesbian rship) and then after that, strictly dated men due to availability. some felt right, some felt wrong, just like any rship. But I dated an "exgay" guy who came out to be "gay" (He identifies as a Male). We allowed me to experiment with the part of myself that felt that I was androgenous, and I loved him. He broke up with me and I went back to being "bi". I struggled during that rship to define whether or not I was 1. a girl 2. a man. 3. genderfluid. I also wasnt sure if I could spend my life with a man that would not dress as a woman. I could not accept either, a ciswoman, that never would let me be a man. Im confused about what this means for my sexuality. I just had sex (as a man) with a crossdressing man (mtF). I had a great time being a man and feeling both his feminine and masculine sides. I love women. I also like men. But I dont like cis-straight men. Ive realized this. I know "pansexual" exists too, but Im not sure if thats what I am. tldr: Im a bio female that questions identity, and have had sex with men, women, and now a trans/crossdressing mtf. Does this make me pansexual? Could I ever be happy with anyone other than a trans?
Who you've had sex with doesn't determine your sexual orientation; who you want to have sex with does.
