Hey I consider myself bisexual. To my gay side, I am still confused though. I ve never have sex with man (with girl many times) but fantasies about sex with man really turn me on. I think I have strongest orgasm after jerking of to MM sex fantasies than to MF sex fantasies. I have my dream male types, mainly some models or porn actors from internet. However in real life I can count on my 5 fingers men whom I found attractive. My coworkers are 90% male but none of them I find attractive, rather opposite; I find them kind of slobby and not sexually attractive at all. Also for me, smell of potential sexual partner is very important. And many males from my ambience aren't smell arousing for me. Its different with girls; I find some passing by females attractive also smell of some females is attractive for me. But if I met my dream male I think we would have great sex and adding also personaility which sparks with mine I could consider relationship (I just make assuption because never been with man in relationship). It is also the case with porn; I like to watch at two males naked and having sex, but I find most gayporn actors unattractive for me. I have my niches like some vintage gay porn movies. In hetero porn I am again find more female actors attractive. So it is all so confusing for me. Do you have similar experience? Greets
You are not alone I am the same and very picky in what I like in a male compared to females. It is hard to choose what sex you are but with support from EC and the people on here you will be able to choose/decide who you are. Hope this helps.
Helps of course But I am confused In other hand male to male sex I find gross but also it turns me on very strongly
It sounds to me like maybe you need to try and find a male partner. If you've been with plenty of female partners, maybe it's time to shake the mix up a little? It's also possible that the fantasy is all you need. I've dated women who've fantasized about sleeping with other women but have never done it for real, and they proclaim themselves 100% straight. Sexuality can be so complicated. I have this exact problem when it comes to porn. There are very few gay porn actors that I find appealing, and in fact I find it very difficult to watch gay porn even though I've engaged in and enjoyed sex with men. I'm not nearly as particular about straight porn or lesbian porn. A lot of the time I find straight porn actors to be a lot more appealing than gay porn actors. I'd rather fantasize that I'm the one going down on the straight male porn actor than watch most gay porn films. It's a peculiar situation, and I've often wondered if I'm alone in finding gay porn a little off-putting.
Regarding desire: yes it could be just a fantasy, but when I met dream man I woulld't resisted him I think... But, yeah sexuality in some is complicated and sometimes is hard to find your right way. Regarding porn. I think that modern main stream gay porn is too harsh for me, just pure banging. Also models there are not my cup of tea. It is also interesting, but in hetero porn I do not like when hot babe is fucked by guy who I find off-putting So I like vintage gay porn; men are more natural, emotional and more gentle there. also in my opinion they are more handsome and slender like rather hunk type in modern porn. Yes I sometimes dont understand myself....
