Hello everyone who happens to stumbles upon this. So let's start from the beginning because yeah. Okay so I've always considered myself straight without giving it any thought. I mean, growing up, I thought women could be pretty and/or beautiful, but never like, "I wanna be with you!" or "I find you sexually attractive!". Since I was five or so I've had crushes on guys, mostly because I thought they were cute or something or I really looked up to them. I've never kissed or dated a boy, not that that matters at all, but yeah, just letting you know. Okay so at the end of seventh grade, around the time when I was 12, I've had a huge crush on one of my friends. Now all of a sudden guys have gotten less attractive and girls have caught my attention way more. Today, almost a ninth grader, I still have a crush on my friend. I can't shake it. I've gotten obsessed with her. Lately I've gotten sudden urges to hug her or touch her in some way. I also really want to tell someone what I'm feeling. I keep these feelings and urges bottled up though, but it really gets to me mentally, it makes me want to scream. I still find boys attractive though. I'm just confused, that's all. Heh :help: . K thanks.
