Hi there im in the 10th grade and im confused. First off, ive liked girls all my life and ive always seen my future with a wife and kids. A while ago though i started realizing if i saw a good looking guy on the tv ide get a tingly feeling downstairs and not soon after i started watching gay porn. I would say that for every 10 times i watch porn, i watch gay stuff once but it always gives me the bigger orgasm and i get hard before i even start masturbating. I feel extremely guilty afterwards too because personally i dont want to be gay. In school i only get with girls and the people who i have crushes on are all girls. Once in a while ill go on ****** and talk to gay people because it gets me very horny. Dont get me wrong i like girls a lot and they get me horny too but for guys i just get a bit more horny. Sometimes i finger myself and i really like it. Should i just have sex with a guy and get it out of my system? Am i gay, bisexual, bicurious? help!!
*Sigh* My boat exactly a few years ago... I really don't suggest having sex with a guy just to "get it out of your system", but that's just me. your second question... that's for you and you alone to decide, but I'd say you're probably bi. It's gonna suck (no pun intended) for a while, but you can't just fight it off - I tried and failed miserably, and it just made me feel worse.
You sound like me right around that age. I decided at that age I was bi, and then spent the next 10 years fighting myself. Last summer I accepted the fact that I like guys, came out to a few people as bi, and then just recently realized that I'm more gay/homoflexible than bi. Only you know who you are, what you like, and what you should be called. Whatever you do, I hope and pray that you don't spend the next 10 years of your life fighting yourself like I did. Keep posting as you figure yourself out--you've come to a good place (*hug*)
