Hello, Lyric here. So I've known I was attracted to girls for a while. Most of that time it was more something that was in the back of my mind, and I never really gave it a second thought until later, when I was exposed to more LGBT people. Here's my problem though. Most of the relationships (with guys) that I have been in before I acknowledged that I was on some levels attracted to girls, have ended because of a peculiar feeling. It's almost one of dread when I'm with a guy (like a boyfriend) sexually, or even around him. I'm not sure if this feeling is because I just wasn't attracted to that guy in general anymore, or if it was because I wasn't attracted to guys in that way all-together. Don't get me wrong, I am attracted on a physical level to guys (like saying "he is cute!" And such) but the limited amount of relationships with guys that I have been in (I'm a teen) have all resulted in that feeling of dread and me having to break up with them in the end because I just couldn't take it. I think that part of the reason I might be attracted to girls is because most of them seem to have a "better" or more "familiar" personality than the guys that I have been with and most guys I know. I feel like if I dated a guy, they would have to be my "ideal" type or else I wouldn't be able to maintain a relationship without that feeling of dread coming back. It's so complicated and I honestly don't know what my sexuality is, which bothers me. Help anyone?
Hello Lyric! Have you ever thought you might be bisexual? Being bisexual, despite what people often imply, means you are attracted to both sexes, but not necessarily in the same way or to the same degree (IE, it doesn't have to be 50/50). You might think guys are attractive on a certain level and might pursue a relationship with one under the right circumstances, but you might prefer women most of the time. You don't need a label, really, though I'd understand it if you do. I wish I knew what I was just so I could have the relief of saying "Aha! Now I've figured it out!". Best of luck!