Well even as a young kid I watched porn and I kinda had a girly side to me. I've always had a strange attraction to penises. I'm straight and only date girls but sometimes I would have a strange sexual urge for guys. Is it just a fantasy? I haven't yet done anything with a guy but would I? Yes but I'm very nervous to do so. Especially knowing that I don't know any guy that would even partake in something like this with me (oral mainly). One more thing, I've always like women's panties.... I now consider it a fetish but can someone confirm for me? I'm very in the closet about all of this.
hmmm lemme ponder his abit lol The panties thing, do you like wearing them?(if so have you explored more?) feeling them? as for the girly side, what is it that you do to feel "girly"?
for the panties thing, yes I like to do some cressdressing for fun but it makes me kinda feel good. As for girly like, I sometimes like doing girly things or I like girly things. Just in general. I like to play with hair clips and stuff but my hair isn't long enough for it.
Whether a desire is a fantasy or an identity is a straightforward question: Do you identify with it? If not, then it's fantasy. You are the only person who can choose who the real you is. Another way to think about it is this: would you enjoy it in reality, or only in your imagination? Of course, again, you are the only one who can determine what counts as your reality. If it takes a little experimentation to make your choice, that doesn't make it any less your choice, ultimately. Mainstream social acceptability is a distraction. The ethics of the identity or fantasy are always worth considering, but no less independent of the "which is it?" question, regardless of how your ethical evaluation turns out.