I feel like porn attraction isn't being entirely true to real experiences. I find myself not able to kiss or perform oral on a male and liking it but in porn I like the fantasy. So I'm a bit confused. Could it be I'm not comfortable with who I am yet? I feel like this experience in general has been traumatic. Being straight and then realizing I am possibly gay. I think of my ex nearly everyday too which is depressing, she was a girl I dated for 2 years and left because of my confusion. Sometimes I just wish she was still here
I had the same problem, and this comes from someone who abused of porn, it became an addiction and I'm happy to have stopped. Thing is: porn is porn and it has nothing do with the real thing, mostly. There are things that in porn turns me on like mad, then I've tried them in real life and I went "meh". Porn is just visual, but when you have the real thing all five senses are concerned, plus some kind of inner connection, if that person is a special one. Really something else.
