Why?

I logged in to this site because I would like to be helped on figuring out who I am. Ive always( and still kind of do) consider myself straight. But not so recently I have been asking myself questions on who I am exactly. The questions have been even stronger these days, and im so confused I can't bloody tell. I have thought perhaps i could talk to my mom about it but based on what im going to be saying here i doubt its much of a good idea.So let's start from the beginning. When i was a kid, I've always fell in love with boys, and I always wanted to have a boyfriend and have a romantic relationship and all that cheesy stuff. I have never had a boyfriend in my life and now im 16. I used to have a girl bestfriend but I have never felt sexual attraction for her whatsoever. The curious thing though, is that once as a kid, it might sound weird I know, i have felt turned on upon seeing woman breats.( saw them in a comic book.) and later on in teenage hood i once got turned on by lesbian porn, and I was into it for a while. When i was a kid though, i've never questioned myself because i didnt quite know what gay meant or was. I had never been told. Anyways, my story might be long and akward but please, bear with me I started having these feelings when i got into gay slashes and shippings. At first it didn't do a thing but then upon reading these stories( some of them aren't that perverted),and seeing gay love stories( not much sex involved really:/) i started wondering, what if that happend to me. I don't know. The idea of falling in love with someone of the same gender was quite knew to me, and for some reason, i kind of liked the idea that I could be involved in such a relationship. So, yeah. Ive decided I was Bi-curious and thats pretty much what I still think. I wanted to experiment. See if it would feel right. Since then I have fantasized quite a lot about having a same sex-relationship. I don't know. just the thrill of it i guess. and also because I am afraid of penetration and having sex with a boy would not be as safe as with a girl.the emotions have been getting stronger to the point where im in denial/scared. I do want to be part of the gay community and im all for gay rights. trust me i get super pissed if someone says an idiocity against gays ect... Its like i myself i want to be gay but i know i cant cause i cant feel attraction phisically to women. I mean i feel like sometimes i am forcing myself to be at least bisexual and its bothering cause i do want to accept myself just the way i am, but i want at the same time to fall in love with a woman, to be biIve heard of people falling in love with same sex gender not because of the looks but because of personality. So i hope that could happen to me. Im in denial a bit because if someone were to tell me, ''you are defenitly staight. no way you will ever be in love with a woman!'' I would be sad and a bit angry too. And scared because, well, because im not sure how some people would react in my family and i dont think i want to mary a woman in the future. Haaa. Im not even sure what im talking about, anymore. I just wish i could of been born a man sometimes. i do like how they look and well i would be gay in that case( gay porn is a massive turn on for me;P almost anything gay really) Butt yeah just some issues. Am i forcing myself and if so why do you think so? could it be that i might actually be bi? thankyou for whoever answers me