hello everyone, Up until a couple of years ago I have considered myself straight. a few people have hinted that I might be gay. Hearing these people say that I might be gay really made me question who I am (the fact that I have OCD, and social anxiety disorder only adds to my confusion). I obsess about what people think about me to the point that no matter where I go I am constantly worried that people will think I am gay. The ironic thing about all this is the fact that my family and friends are incredibly supportive of the gay community and would love me no matter my sexual orientation. I find myself looking at guys (e.g. on TV I notice attractive men and especially watching sports I admire how strong and in shape athletes are). When I am at the gym I appreciate seeing fit people both men and women, but I notice guys bodies more and I compare them to myself. I dont get sexuallay aroused by men but i feel like I enjoy looking at them. My sexually fantasies revolve around girls, but since my last relationship ended (the only girl i have ever loved) I have not really had the inclination to date anyone. The last couple of girls I hooked up with I did not enjoy it; maybe because I did not really have feelings for them, or because I am so insecure. If anyone who has/is going through something similar I would really appreciate some feedback. Thanks!
Heyy , so , here is what i think : I think that you are straight . Why ? Because , as you said , you only have sexual attraction to women . Is normal to a straight boy who likes to work out admire othrr boys bodies . I know because i have straight friends that do it . You hav to think emotionaly what do you prefeer too btw , think about it . You said that you are kinda sad after u break up with ur girlfriend , i think it vanishes with time and is hard to influence on your sexual orientation . Another thing : I have having crushes on guys since i know myself as a person , i never had a sexual attraction to a girl , but i am kinda uncofident about my sexuality because society tries to build my mind , even if i know that i am gay for a long long time ! It may be happning to you , but its inverted . People say that ur gay so much that u start to force it into ur mind . I think that you may try to clear all society shit from your mind and find wath YOU like . Try to watch lesbian porn , then gay porn , then try imagining urself with a boy then with a girl . Trust me , it helps , buuuuuut .. If u do not get sure , just try it . The best way to know it is dating a guy , then a girl ; so u can ser if your bi , str , or gay . But do it if you get confused . Best of luck !