I've always considered myself straight and have had crushes on girls and masturbated while fantasizing about women since I was a young teen. However, due to a few factors (overweight, inexperience, low self esteem) I've never really had a girlfriend. I'm 25 btw. But one day while in college I got high and looked at gay porn. And certain types did turn me on. Before this lesbian porn and hentai were always my favorite, but after that night, gay porn turned me on, I've been questioning my sexuality. I even tried hooking up with a guy on Craigslist, but in the end he simply gave me a blow job and I couldn't return the favor. I don't find men sexually attractive, though there are some I wish I looked liked. I thought HOCD may be the cause, but the anxiety only goes away when I find a girl who I think may be into me, but it returns when I'm afraid I won't be able to have sex with her because I might be gay, though I've had sex with women before and loved it. Though only a hand full of times. Though gay porn turns me on, I've never had romantic feelings about a guy, or ever fantasized about sex with a particular guy. But gay porn still turns me on, but only when there's a fem involved. I don't like muscular guy on guy. The anxiety I'm getting is really starting to interfere with my personal life. Fear of not performing, fear some gay guys at work may like me, fear that I'll never find the answer. I have nothing against homosexuals. The whole "big deal" never made sense to me to begin with. But I don't know if that's because I just don't think its a big deal, or my uncertain sexuality has apsomething to do with it. My mom thinks I'm gay because of my lack of girlfriends. Do you think I'm gay? All answers a greatly appreciated.
Simple solution - if you're not romantically attracted to men you're not gay. There's nothing to worry about the next time you have a chance with a woman, just go for it. Also, if you're only turned on by gay porn with fem guys, I would still call you straight. A cool, opened minded straight guy, but straight. Start watching the muscular guy on guy action (woof!) and then we'll talk. Until then calm down and enjoy life! Take what makes you happy. And it sounds like women are what make you happy. Good luck bro.
No, I don't think you're gay. How long have you been watching porn? I'm gonna guess the answer: like most of us, years? It's possible that you may have a porn addiction. One of the things that happens with porn is we love the novelty. We love to see something different. And it's possible that gay porn was just the next "different" thing that got you excited. Porn is not an indicator of your sexual orientation. If you're curious about what I'm talking about with respect to porn, addiction, look here. [youtube]wSF82AwSDiU[/youtube]
I definitely agree with the above, that you're not gay. But if worrying about it is bothering you that much, it might be something therapy could help with, even if it's not exactly HOCD. (I don't mean to push therapy at people. Just a thought.)
It's up to you too decide if you're gay or not but, since you asked for our opinions, I would have to agree with previous posters - you're probably not gay. I sometimes watch gay porn and I'm not attracted to men at all (for me, I look for genuine emotion and sometimes it's the men that provide the right emotion).
