Hi there, thanks for reading. Means a lot to me. This might get lengthy. I used to identify as straight- a part of me still does. But I have been attracted to girls since at least 1st grade. (Not trying to say I wasn't born this way- that is just my first memory of it). I have always been romantically attracted towards guys though, and for the most part- I am attracted to them as well. In 8th grade I came out as Bisexual. It made sense, because I did find myself attracted to girls after all. It didn't go well. With my mom at least, as pro-gay rights as she is, didn't really understand the definition of being bisexual. "But you like boys..." Yes, I do. But I think I also like girls. What worries me, and keeps me from being certain in my sexuality is that I can't see myself being romantically attracted to girls. My thoughts on this get complicated: Maybe its just the way I was raised? Maybe because I am too influenced by our culture and the social norms where I live? And if the relationship norms around me included female and female couples I wouldn't be held back? Maybe it is just a normal reaction to how woman are so sexualized in the media. I have heard of a study of sexual orientation that showed that it was hard to even proof that a woman was straight. Maybe I am just suppressed... maybe I haven't met the right girl? I just don't want to fall into my bad habit of just doing what is expected of me. I am working on paying attention to how I feel and what I want to do, rather than what I feel like I should be doing. LONG STORY SHORT definitely sexually attracted to women, however I don't feel romantically attracted to them pretty sexually attracted to guys, really romantically attracted to them Thanks for reading.
