Hey , so , first of all , i am 17yo , i came out as gay 4 months ago . Before this time , i was pretty sure that i was gay , i kinda knew since i was a little kid , 3-4 years ( i have some memories ) . Never had a direct homophobic feeling about myself , never wanted to turn straight . I think that almost everyone gets unsecure when thing about coming out . Mine wasn't defferent . I search about EVERYTHING to know if i was gay , what is being gay , how it is , etc etc . I wasn't accepting myself very well but I KNEW that i was gay . Today , i accept myself , but i don't know if i am gay anymore . After reading that your sexuality may change with time ( its random , you do not choose it ) and that almost everyone is kinda bi , i started to get unsure about my sexuality . I used to be more sexually then emotionaly attracted to guys ( even if my emmotional attraction on guys was bigger , i was like , 100% sexually gay ) , but now i don't know what is happening to me . I still getting "horny" about men , but now i feel something about women too . It is confusing me ALOT , seriously , i stopped to know what i like and what i feel . But here is a big difference : I know what i like in men ( face bone structure , abs , beard , short hair , masculinity , etc ) , and this "attraction" is kinda very big than my attraction to women ( that i really can't point very well what i like ). [READ IT WITH ATTENTION : What i am going to say right now may look a bit offensive , disgusting at some point , but this is not my intention . There isn't a better way to explain it , sorry ] --- I don't know if i really have a REAL attraction on women or if i do because it is [HERE IT IS , DON'T GET OFFENDED PLZ] "fuckable" . Ok , it is rude , very rude , but i want to say that just idk if i am really attracted to it beacuse i am or just because it has something that gets exited ( clitoris ) , that makes me know know that it is exited , than makes me exited . Its kinda complex , but i think is able to understand . [ANOTHER RUDE THING] If i imagine a guy using a masturbator , i get exited because i know that he is getting exited and i know how it is . I don't know if i may have the attraction on woman because they are humans and is kinda impossible to have 0 atraction to it . And these days i don't know if i lost some attraction on boys and gained on girls or what , i just lost what is getting turned on by a gender . It is confusing me :/ , please help , and if u want to know something more , don't hesitate to ask , completly open about everything . And sry about my english :s . Thanks !
It's not impossible to have 0 attraction to some people. I have 0 attraction to anyone. Many gays and straights are a little bit bi, but there are some who are 100% gay or straight with no attraction to their non-preferred gender. I don't know what you are, but don't think that you have to be somewhat bi, because not everyone is.
True . Forgot this fact ... But one thing , what do you think about my situation :c , its making me really upset , to don't know if i like only boys , or if i like both , or more boys than girls , or alt more boys than girls ...
Take a look as the Kinsey scale. If you're uncomfortable with it, just try to stop thinking about it for a while and see what happens (I know, it's hard)