question but not sure if im being silly, so please correct me one way or another. basically I was born male, but have always been feminine, told I sat, like a girl, looked like one, had features of one, even older told my skin is soft like a woman's, and I have features like one, body wise im not. Told by women I am very in touch with my feminine side. Okay that all sounds weak, but its just background info. over the past two years I have wished more then anything I was a woman, and could shed the male role completely. In fact if I was offered a wish, I would wish for that. However my sexuality is that I am attracted to woman. To a degree I have suffered depressing and anxiety for the last two years, I still cant free myself from, and had to quit working a highly paid job, I have some saving which can last, but am still supporting kids and school fees and all those things, in a marriage which has been broken for a good 4 years, without any love/contact. I really don't want any contact with my wife at all. But am afraid to go alone, and kinda not sure what I am. I suspect to a degree I have retreated to a sub-personality (female) as a result of the anxiety above, but as time goes on it wont just be me who suffers, my kids etc will as well. I came from a family which was split when I was 10 and my mother went to the US with my brother and sister, while I with my twin stayed in Canada, so I don't want my kids to suffer through that. Basically Im not sure who I am or even how to categorize myself or who to talk about it. I need to do something. Im not suicidal, but have been close at times, close enough to think 'what if I'.... I stopped the drugs Prozac I was given as it did not help, which is why I think this is more complicated then just MD. I guess I asking the community here, is this something anyone identifies with this, ?, or is it just a temporal thing I should ignore. I don't even know how to classify it, closest I have seen is male lesbian, as strange as that sounds.
How about working with therapist experienced in issues of sexuality? I wouldn't pretend to know enough to offer an opinion here