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Confused about sexuality

Discussion in 'Sexual Orientation' started by bm1414, Mar 11, 2014.

  1. bm1414

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    I am 18 but here is a little background first.When I was 12 i discovered pornography and watched it daily. However as time went on I began to watch girl on girl to straight to transexual porn then to gay porn. When i first watched gay porn i thought it was cool and seemed like fun. This fetish lasted for about one month before i stopped liking it as much. However during this time i still had crushes on girls and master-bated to girls. I remember thinking to myself that i wanted to try this because it seemed cool yet that went away. As time went on I got really depressed and thought that i was gay because i watched the gay porn and enjoyed it. But i still liked girls and felt that by being gay i would miss out on the girls. Once i got out of my funk of being gay i put the thought of being gay on the back burner and flirted with girls and fell for girls. I always dreamed of kissing a girl throughout my whole life and have never thought about kissing a guy. The thought simply does not arouse me. Move forward a couple more years, and i still get freaked out about being gay. The reason why i think I'm gay is because i use to enjoy gay porn. I no longer enjoy it and will watch it maybe once and twice on occasion. But every winter i always get into a depression and think that i am gay. I have had a girlfriend for 2 years and the thought of loosing her scares me. I enjoy being with her and kissing her and having sexual intercourse. However, why did i watch the gay porn? I do admit that i have a porn addiction and watch and master-bate to much. When i don't watch it for a while i first go to girl porn. When i look at gay porn now i do not get the same arousal as i use to. I feel like i have to force myself to watch it and force myself to ejaculate to it. How can i be gay if i am in love with a girl and have master-bated to countless pictures and videos of girls. Another point is that i find girls sexy and hot but hardly every find a guy hot in a sexual way. I keep forcing myself to view gay porn and master-bate to naked guys to see if i get the sen orgasm as i do with girls. But when i master-bate to girls i feel better when i orgasm opposed to guys. Also when i look at gay porn now i wonder how i ever enjoyed it as much as i did when i was younger. Thank you in advance
     
  2. komodo97

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    As a quick response, fetishes and fantasies do not always deal directly with your orientation. Being one sex, and watching same sex porn of the opposite sex does not have to define your sexual orientation. If you feel a sexual or emotional attraction to someone, go for the relationship and see how you feel, so long as you are honest to your partner if the feelings change or grow stronger. You can also have differing degrees of sexual versus emotional/intimate attractions to different sexes.
     
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    PORN DOES NOT INDICATE SEXUALITY AT ALL.
    You will be surprised how many straight guys at that age watched gay porn, or at least wanted too.

    Probably about 97% of straight males either did it, or wanted to masturbate too it and watch it. Does not make you gay AT ALL.

    That was porn, it was sex. Sex turns people on.

    Everyone here will tell you that porn is no indication of sexuality.

    Im sorry this is just an all too common occurance for straight people.
    Dont go asking because they wont admit it too you.

    But trust me, happens too all of us straight people. (Yes im straight) At the age u were at it was most common.

    STOP worrying, it does not matter that you wanted to "try" it/

    Your mind thought that when masturbating because there was all these good feelings from seeing the sex and the feeling of you masturbating that made you think you wanted to do that.

    Conclusion, porn does not indicate sexuality. Your straight. Just like every other straight person who secretly worried and didnt tell anyone they had this little urge. No big deal dude. Its common.
     
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    I will echo what others have said watching gay porn doesn't make you gay, you seem to have a very strong interest in girls I Wouldn't worry to much about it.