So in elementary school I used to get " crushes ". But I'm starting to wonder if I was just trying to find someone to like like the rest of the girls my age. I think back and can't really find anything I liked about them. In fact I didn't really know them. Come to think of it I don't think I've ever had a real crush on a guy. So was this really crushes or just me trying to fill a void with something I didn't really want but everyone else did? These were short scrawny kids too that no one else thought were cute.
This is quite possible. I realized the same thing when I was your age - that I wasn't attracted to or interested in the girls I was crushing on at all. I just felt pressured to do it because of social norms. Definitely possible that you were just going with the flow. Surprisingly, a lot of people say that this happened to them at a younger age. They go with the norm until they take a few minutes to think, "Wait.. am I actually attracted to this person?"
Agree with TJ it's like in 6th grade my best friend was like why don't you ever have a boyfriend or crush on guys I didn't think of it back then but I just figured it was cause she peaked early with dating even though i felt attracted to girls I ended up dating the gayest guy within our group literally people thought he was gay and we dated a month then from that point on I dated guys never thought about sexuality and when I was 23 hooked up with my first girl and was like wow that felt better than any guy I've been with never knew it'd be this good
