Hello! Im going to talk a bit about sex so if you don't like it don't read more. I am 27 years old, have had 3 longer relationsships with girls. I am in one of them right now. With all of them I have had regular sex throughout the relationship. Allthough I have been having problems with getting hard in the start of knowing the person but then once comfortable with the person it works out. I do however have a little problem getting it up now with my girlfriend. And to be honest she isn't the most attractive, but I love her personality. There are more attractive girls though. I have recent years though been worried that I might be gay. And now I have a hard time getting comfortable with the person because I worry I might be gay. When I watch first a naked girl playing with herself I like the idea of it in my head, I mean I like it. But it is a bit hard to get hard, I have to work for it, with my hand, and fantasize a lot what I will do to her(maybe picture a dick in my hard with her to take the "gayness" out of it). When I watch a naked guy playing with himself I don't like it, but I get hard very easy. So this should tell me I am gay right? But I just had sex with my girlfriend while getting hard. And I do get really hard when I penetrate her. But pretty often I have a hard time getting horny with her, I don't know if it is my worries about being gay or if its just a lack of interest. I don't want to have sex with guys, the thought repels me. I think I should add that the sight of vagina is pretty discusting to me... I could live the rest of my life with my girl if everything in my head would just be alright. But I am so worried of me being gay that I can't really function well overall. Any advices? Thanks!
From what I've just read, I don't get the impression you are gay. It doesn't stack up. The only thing that remotely suggests any inclination towards other guys is that you get hard if you see a naked guy playing with himself, but that alone does not make you gay. I can see why it might confuse you, but I very much doubt you would be the only straight man that would get these feelings. Do you find other guys attractive to look at in any way? That might indicate some level of same sex inclination. You said the thought of sex with another man repels you, but some gay men don't have full on sexual relationships. If any sort of contact with another guy repels you though, then I think you are nothing more than confused by getting hard at the sight of another naked guy. You admitted that you don't find your girlfriend attractive which could have something to do with problems getting aroused, but things like stress and some other health issues don't help either. Maybe have a health check up? If you are worrying that you are gay, that's not going to really help you perform well either.
I have never looked at guys in real life. I always check out girls wherever I go. Allthough I can remember a few I times I might have become a bit aroused from seeing a naked guy. didn't really think much of it at the moment though. just carried on as usual. I think I need to stop confusing myself with porn...
Looks like your holding onto any reason to say your not gay when you very well know you are. Just admit it to yourself, and stop trying to rationalize elsewise. This is the place to admit it anyways. No judgement.
