It's quite easy for me to say that I'm bi out loud for some reason. It's weird because I really don't want to be bi. I don't feel comfortable saying that I'm gay or lesbian out loud, but I'm more comfortable with the idea of being gay or lesbian. I sometimes feel like I might be attracted to guys. I also kind of enjoy being hit on by guys, but I always feel scared that I'm giving them the wrong idea. I just don't enjoy kissing or actual relationships.
Well your options are sort of limited. I mean you describe you feelings which appear to be at least partially bisexual, you can easily call yourself bisexual outloud but you aren't comfortable with it inside. You WANT to be gay, but can't say it out loud. So your options are basically limited to come to terms with being a bi with a preference, get over this fear of calling yourself gay or come up with something completely new and deal with everyone in the world telling you that there is already a word for it. I don't want to sound rude, even thought I'm probably coming off that way and I apologise for that. But let me ask you this. If you are "hopefully gay" why are you bothering to look for reasons you might be bi? From all the posts you've posted that I've read you sound absolutely sure you're not going to get with a guy or suddenly turn straight, so why are you still looking for the signs that you will?
Enjoying being hit on by guys doesn't make you bi . I think your worrying about it too much I think your probably not bi and worried you might turn bi
I have OCD tendencies(I'm not diagnosed.) What I'm doing is quite typical for OCD sufferers. I'm just in a tricky situation because my OCD issues and sexuality issues are deeply intertwined. I can't really deal with my sexuality issues without dealing with my OCD issues. I just feel so stuck because the OCD and LGBT resources just feel so incomplete.
" I can't really deal with my sexuality issues without dealing with my OCD issues" Which begs the obvious question, are you doing anything to deal with your OCD issues?
Not really. No one really takes my OCD issues seriously, including my counselor. I have another diagnosis that they blame my OCD issues on. Nothing. I just hate the idea of being bi because that's the nature of my obsessions. They tend to be irrational.
I don't think you're bi. A lot of lesbians are "attracted" to men in the way you're describing; like they look 'cute' or 'pleasing'. A lot of straight girls think women are "sexy" (One I know in particular is obsessed with boobs). Doesn't mean they want to date/have sex with them. Sexuality is about sexual acts. Heterosexual: Attraction to sexual activity with opposite sex Homosexual: Attraction to sexual activity with same sex Bisexual: Attraction to sexual activity with either sex Asexual: Attraction to sexual activity with nobody (Romantic feelings still possible)
