Hey everyone, I'm new here, so I apologize if my post gets a bit lengthy. So I guess what is confusing me most right now in my questioning process are my feelings towards women. I until very recently I had denied my sexual attraction to women, and now it is just beginning to surface. (I'm almost 20 years old & female) And with that I'm becoming more and more curious if my feelings towards some of my female friends are in fact crushes. My close friendships have predominately been with other women, but recently I’ve gotten much closer with my guy friends and noticed I feel much more at ease around them. I always feel a just a bit awkward around my female friends. Is nervousness/ feeling awkward part of romantic attraction or sexual attraction? What I have believed to be crushes on guys for my whole life, i'm now beginning to wonder if they really were crushes. When I am around my guy "crushes" I was/am maybe a bit nervous around them, but once we start talking or actually interacting I feel completely natural, not at all nervous. My friends have always been surprised when I tell them that I don’t get nervous talking to or hanging out with my “crushes”. With girls I get bit quieter and I don’t know what to say. I get worried I'll run out of things to say, or I worry that I might say something foolish. And subconsciously, I think I’ve always been worried they would think I was hitting on them. This uneasiness/ awkwardness is pretty subtle, and I always just assumed most girls felt this way around each other. Any outside opinions would be most appreciated, I’ve been thinking this thorough by myself for so long and it would be great to hear what other people think or hear other's experiences. Anyways thanks for reading through this
Actually it was not this long. There are much longer threads out here I know what you mean. When I talk to boys it never gets that awkward as talking to some girls. Maybe cause I'm not interested in what boys are thinking. Around most of my friends (all of them girls) I act normal. Sometimes awkward but that's a naturally awkwardness of mine Around girls I do not know that much I'm totally awkward. That's hard when it comes to girls that I acually like very much and that I find interesting. This nervousness don't has to be part of any attraction. Maybe you just go along better with boys. But it can be. To sort things out, especially gay things and that sexuality stuff take time. You can't say in a day after another "That's it. I'm gay/whatever". Hope that helps a bit
Well, I can't tell you for sure whether or not this feeling of awkwardness is sexual attraction or not. But I can tell you that I'm bisexual (possibly gay) and this is how I feel and have always felt around girls. I always felt uneasy around girls growing up. I mean, I get along with girls fine and I have plenty of girl friends, but sometimes I just notice this weird feeling there, like a sexual tension or something, lol. It's weird. I know exactly what you're talking about though. Do you feel butterflies around girls or is it just awkwardness? Don't worry, the answers will come to you in time. One month ago I still did not believe I was bi--I was trying to deny it. Now I fully know I'm attracted to women and I'm not trying to suppress it anymore. It will all make sense in time and you will understand it. Just try not to be too hard on yourself. If you ever have questions or need to talk you can post on my wall and I'll answer!
Lol it hadn't occurred to me.. maybe straight people don't have that awkwardness. Somebody should kidnap a few and keep 'em around here for questions like this... Borderline illegal contributions aside, frankly, yes, you could be non-hetero. However, have you actually experienced anything you can identify as clear sexual attraction to someone? If so, under what circumstance (and what gender)? It's all about taking the time to lay it all down and see how things turn out. Don't rush yourself. It turns out okay (most of the time).