I know there must be people out there like me... I've been involved and living with another man in a loving relationship for more than 30 years. We are partners and best friends. Like many couples who have been together for as long as we have, our sex life has dropped off to...well, it's pretty much over...with each other anyways. We have a partially open relationship; meaning, we are allowed to have sex with other people if it's only sex. We both know that sex can be only sex. Rarely do we ever talk about it, but it's not a huge issue and nobody get's bent out of shape. Now, here's the rub... I've been secretly having sex with women since we met. When I first tried to bring up the subject of bisexuality many many years ago, he basically told me that I was afraid to admit that I was gay. He, like many of my gay friends, doesn't believe bisexuals exist. He sees me as strictly gay...period. I always hear of stories where someone discovers late in life that their gay, but, for me, I'm now just coming to terms with my bisexuality and the fact that I'm actually more attracted to women than men. What the hell? I want to be honest with my partner about how I feel, but it's really uncomfortable. Whenever the subject comes up, like after watching a movie with a bi character, he just thinks they're freaks. He holds onto really negative stereotypes of bisexuals. I want to be free of this secret. I remember when I came out as 'Gay' and how liberating the feeling was. Now I want to tell him that I'm Bi, but I'm deathly afraid.
