Sexual Orientation - I´m confused

Hi First I want to say that I am sorry at the awful state of my English abilities, as for the English language is not my mother tongue. Sorry for every foolish mistake I make. :eusa_doh:

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I´m 16 years old and I don´t know my sexual orientation (as you can see in the title). I´m really confuse, because I think that I might be gay - I don´t have any problem with this, but I just want to know if I am...Because I´m very anxious/nervous person that likes to control everything, But I even don´t know who I am (sexual orientation, what to choose in the university....) and this is turn me crazy and a little "aggressive" (I´m not a aggressive at all - psychical, but I´m more "cold" when I talk to people).

This is my situation (I will do a resume - at least I will try):
- Since I born and I always know that I wasn´t like the other "typical boys", my friends always were girls (nowadays this occurs too, 80% of my friends are girls, and all of my close friends are women). I didn´t play the games/toys that everyone else played, I didn´t/don´t like sports (I love tennis!!) but not football that it´s the "king sport" in my country. But I never give any importance for this, because I thought that it doesn´t matter what you like to do, your hobbies.
But since I grown up people sometimes made fun of me, because I always were the more "female" boy (but this was getting better passing the years - but sometimes I hear some stupid comments), but it wasn´t due to my appearance, because fashion for me it´s a big thing, and I actually like to wear formal clothes; my hair is "normal" - I hate brush up, I don´t have the lisp - so In this terms I don´t correspond to the stupid stereotype that society made.
But then as a person that thinks to much (big defect) I started thinking: "Maybe I´m blind and this people know me better." "Am I gay?" - Because (to be honest) I fix in very aspects of stereotype (that I will talk later). And when I was younger, when I discovered what was masturbation I started to see gay porn. Actually when I masturbate, 70% of the time was with gay porn. And yeah, I really find out boys very hot and I have physical crushes. But in other side, I also have erection when a see a hot girl. Boobs are awesome too), vaginas= normal (...) but I don´t know my temptation is too see gay porn most of the time.

Now talk about stereotypes that I fix (I know that stereotypes are a stupid and horrible thing...but I´m so confused at the moment :bang::bang:
1) I love and I adore musicals!!!
2) I talk a lot with my hands
3) I don´t have the lisp but I talk like I was in theatre (said once a friend)
4) I don´t understand anything about fashion but I criticize what other people wear.(I know that this is bad and a little "bitch")
5) I hate sports (Besides tennis and badminton)
6) I´m a "drama queen"
7) Some things that I like that are more "girl" things
8) (....)

But then I start thinking: How I can be if I never love a boy? (But this might happen because I never search for a boy); How can I "search" for boy if i´m not sure of my sexual orientation?; And wait....How I can love a boy? I "hate" must of the boys that I know, I only hang out with girls, I don´t have any close friend (...) (But this maybe happens because I´m a little different of the other boys...and my personality don´t fix with their personality...If I met a gay boy, or someone just more like me....); If I prefer soo much girls and I love their personality why Am I not straight? (....) And I think in all of this things and too much things...Is it just can be physical attraction to boys, and not "love"? (....)
And another bad thing is that I don´t know anyone that it´s gay (well, I know people that it´s but I don´t any contact in my circle of friends or around)

But then sexual orientation is not just the other thing that I might be different, as I consider myself to old for my age (even I´m little crazy sometimes); - I´m a vintage person, I love policy, read excellent books (and not the "commercial book"), discuss in debate, see the news, I love debate (I think that talk in public and discuss about economy, law, policy, education (....) is what I like more), write is one of my passions, I adore alternative rock and pop music, but I like to classical music and opera, and I hate electronic music, reggae, rap (...) grgrgr, and I go to the party, to nightclubs (...) but of course that I love hang out with friends, talk and talk, do silly and retarded things (...) yes because in the other side, how I am to serious or I´m a crazy guy very funny (I´m the extremes ahahaha)

And it´s basically this - I don´t know who I am, neither my sexual orientation;
And then I think in more things:
How we should love woman or men, why we just don´t love people?; How I can be gay if I never love a boy? How can I assume be gay/bi/straight if I never kissed a boy or a girl? (....)

I never talk with anybody about this....and this is making me more crazy....I thought tell to my best friend, I think that she will understand, because I think that see already knows that I´m confused, but I´m not sure if I should...and if she is not, she is liberal, but when it´s to some close she starts treat me in a different way or just look me in a different away, or if I´m not gay or bi and I´m creating a "storm"....

I´m so confused :bang::bang::bang: Please help me!! Thanks :icon_bigg

PS: If some know portuguese, please write in portuguese that it´s more easy to me to answer(...) if not write in english, because I understand very well what i read and I understand well what people say, the problem is to write and to speak (I did not revise what I write here, and sorry!!! because it should have a lot of errors, grammar errors:...)

 

Thanks

Just one more thing, which are the differences btw bisexual/bi-romantic?

If someone else could give their opinion/experience I would appreciate. Thanks!