Can I determine my orientation from porn and dreaming?

I´d like to know if I can determine my sexual orientation from the type of the porn I am watching or from my day dreaming. I know that porn is not a real life, and I realised that I would like to try the same things like in the porns I like to watch, but not always.

For example: I´d never do oral sex, neither with man or woman. I know I am patheric abnd that this is the basic and most sought sexual pleasure among people (regardless their sexuality), but for me, licking somebody´s P or V is just extremely... yucky. Sorry. I am a virgin (I don´t have a hymen, though; and I have a vibrator), so that is possibly the reason, and everybody tries to convince me that once I try it, I am going to love it... but I don´t think so. But I am willing to try everything else, except maybe for caviar or pissing. Ugh... those things... just NO.

But this is ot what I want to talk about. I THINK I am bi, becase I THINK I am also attracted to guys. As for the porn, I ONLY get excited when I am watching a threesome, or a double penetration. Don´t ask me why, I dunno. It is usually two men and one female, but the female is a central object of my lust. That might mean that I am a lesbian... but I don´t like watching lesbian porn, I find it so damn BORING. Two girls getting on it do NOTHING for me. Well, in PORN. In a real life (I never had lesbian relationship or sex), I think I would be very much aroused. But I THINK that I also need COCK - both in porn and in my real life. Not that I find it attractive, more kind of repulsive, but I find even vaginas repulsive. I rather think of the whole human being, whether male or female, THAT arouses me more than thinking about their genitals. But back to my "cock need" - I really think I would love love love having sex with a guy. The feeling of having it inside of me. YET I am CONFUSED to the highest level that when I watch porn (MMF), I only focus on the girl and how much fun she must be having. I love her breasts, her shape... yet I find men attractive, too - without the cock (and women without vaginas).

Which leads me to my day dreaming (I never dream at night and I never ever had an erotic dream; I only get dreams few times in a year, and it is ALWAYS about having lost somewhere and trying to look for somebody or it has no plot whatsoever). When I dream, I dream only about guys (especially about James Dean LOL). I don´t feel the need to dream about girls, I might have dreamt about some just few times in my life. This is NATURAL for me. YET when I go down the street, I see women everywhere, and look at their ass and legs. I think I now think less about guys, but that is possibly only because I have got focused only at girls these days. YET there are guys who attract me in the real life, yet I find more atractive men in my dreams or in Hollywood (maybe I am just too picky, which is probably true).

I honestly don´t know what to think. I would just like to find out what my dreams and imaginations mean. Do you have any clue? You migght see it better than me. When I did the Kinsey test, I got number. 2 on it, when I did the Klein grid test, I got no. 2, too. And when I did the Flexuality test (also a certified test), I got "Ambisexual", which meant Bi 50/50. YET I don´t know. I am still waiting for getting assessed on the vaginal plethysmography screening test (they put a wire with a pad in your vagina and let you watch various porn movies. If you are homosexual, the blood flow in your vagina increasses when you see a picture of naked girl; this is how it works). And Lord knows if they really let me undergo it, and it might take place in WEEKS (I am already getting mad not knowing what the hell I am supposed to be; I need to start my sexual life KNOWING who shall I turn to). But the screening would help me; they say it really WORKS.

So, whaddya think?

---------- Post added 6th Apr 2014 at 12:13 PM ----------

Additional info: I read other posts here and there was somebody asking the same thing - if porn is the decisive factor or if your own fantasies are the decisive factor. The truth is, I dot have my own sexual fantasies. I have a great imagination, but it is useless when it omes to sex - when I try to arouse myself, I MUST think of porn, otherwise I am unable of creating a picture in my mind. When I daydream, it is mostly ROMANTIC, about being with somebody, holding hands with them, being close to them; and the person is mostly MALE. But this can be just OUT OF HABIT, you know. Because I can think of girls in my real life I would do right on the spot.

 

I dunno; I think so. There are few boys in my class I find handsome and whom I imagine having sex with. But I dunno how strongly I want it. But I think I want them. And some other men in college. But again, that can only be my wishful thinking and not reality. But I COULD have sex withthem without minding it, I guess.

 

Emotionally more to women, men need to gain my trust 1st, but I cannot imagine spending more than few years with women. I have always imagined myself with men, at least so far.

 

Then I don´t know. I will have to wait for the assessment, as it seems. I will inform you guys how it panned out after I am done with it. But THAT will take time in weeks.

---------- Post added 6th Apr 2014 at 07:52 PM ----------

Meanwhile, keep on writing if you have any ideas or questions, people. I need to keep my mind entertained in order not to get crazy from the overall confusion.

 

Generally, you could be right... with the exception of me being straight. I KNOW I am not straight. I feel sexually eroused by men AND women. I just dunno who attracts me more. And I definitely get orgasms watching women or watching men with other men. I think I must be either bi or a lesbian (but not a 100 per cent lesbian, that´s for sure). I may not feel the lust for male or female genitals per se, but for males and females themselves..? I definitely do.

 

That´s what I think, too. I am afraid to get involved in ANY kind of relationship but I will HAVE to do it or I will stay forever alone.

 

I know and I am not afraid to fall in love with a girl; I am afraid to LOVE and BE LOVED in general, gender-irrelevant. Because I fear I will be hurt. That my trust will be broken. Again, gender-irrelevant. And I just cannot get past that.