It Seems Like I'm A Lesbian Except For It Doesn't

I think I'm lesbian but my crushes have been confusing me. To start off, most of them were male. :rolle: My male crushes flirted with me a lot (the usually first expressed some interest in me, and then I gradually developed a crush on them), and sometimes I would fantasize about being close friends with them and getting to know them better (these were actually really strong feelings)... butttttt I never wanted to do anything romantic with them (e.g. actually be in a relationship as opposed to just flirting). I actually had a couple sexual fantasies about this one guy, but they were really weird since he was always in the submissive part :icon_redf sometimes after flirting with him I would get kind of turned on :lol: ... anyway...

I only recently opened up to the idea of being not-hetero, around when I noticed feelings for this girl. Months later, it was this other girl... I was way more romantically attracted to my female crushes... I wanted to actually date them and wanted to do stuff but I didn't think about them that much... and the crushes sort of went away after a few months. I guess this had something to do with the fact that we didn't talk that often and that obviously they weren't interested in me in that way so I was pretty darn discouraged lol :icon_redf . Also I think that I'm more physically attracted to girls in /general/ than to guys (I usually find masculinity to be a huge turnoff actually... usually lol), but I never had many physical fantasies about my female crushes... Argh.

I also feel like, in an actual relationship, only a female could satisfy me romantically. I could never really see myself in a serious relationship with a male... but a female is a whole different story... the big problem for me is that I've never been super attracted to a particular female for a long period of time (and I've had 1-2 huge crushes on males).... I feel like that kind of makes me straight but idk. Like if I was really bi or lesbian I would have had some pretty significant crushes on females, right? I'm so confused right now... any thoughts?

(By the way, most of my friends are male, and I never develop crushes on my close male friends lol in case that helps idk)