There is a part of me that carries the question that has kept me stuck for so long. I have been married for 25 years. I am 54. I believe I am Gay and I believe I have know this since I was in my 20's. I married at 30. The nagging question is whether or not I have just had my mind shifted by gay porn that I have been aroused by since buying my first gay Manscape magazine while in college. I guess I desire this elusive certainty if I am going to risk coming out to my wife and family.