So I went through the first 15 or so years of my life being straight. Although I've never had a boyfriend, I've always had crushes on boys and male celebrities and I never saw women as sexually attractive. However, when I was about 16 I met this girl (she is a lesbian btw and I'm still close friends with her now and I told her I like her, but that's another story :lol at my school and I started having feelings for her. At fist I didn't think it was a crush, I just though I REALLY liked her as a friend. I had a few sexual fantasies about her but I just thought it must be because I'm a horny teenager going through a phase or something After a few months (maybe even a year), I kind of just accepted that I have a crush on her (I actually think I'm in love with her) and that's when I started to wonder whether I may be bisexual. Then I thought maybe I could be straight and attracted to just one girl. But I stopped thinking that because now I find other girls (as long as they're masculine) attractive. Since about a year (maybe more) ago, when I started to realise I may be in love with this girl, I have not thought about or looked at men in a sexual way at all. Now that I think about it, I have never really been 'boy crazy' or really had the desire to have a boyfriend (I go to a girls school btw, but plenty of girls still do have boyfriends). I have thought about sex with women a couple of times, but pretty much the only person I think about is my friend. So yeah, because I don't really think about men anymore and I can't imagine myself being happy with a man (although it could just be because I'm in love with my friend), I'm starting to think that maybe I'm a lesbian. Can anyone relate?
