I'm pretty sure I have some form of ocd since i used to worry about going bald, having aspergers, being a sociopath. and usually when these feelings blow over and i accept that i'm normal, the feelings come back again and the anxiety comes back. well recently i started to wonder if i might be gay and the thought never even came up until i got my ears pierced and my mom started to ask me "you think you might like boys?". of course i said no but one of my friends was begging my mom to come over my house after a party(he had taken some pills and if his mom found out he was goin to jail) so that made me look even more suspicious. i told my friends and they laughed and told her to bring a girl over my house and what not but i never really cared to prove her wrong, just let it blow over y'know? but the reason i ask is cuz i haven't had a crush on a girl for like 2 years since i'm pretty sure i got some form of social anxiety and always was too nervous to take the initiative and i always waited too long to take make a move. after having my heart broken i just haven't really had my eyes on any girls except one but i didn't really crush on this one, she was hot so i only thought about havin sex with her. we never got together, she graduated so it was too late. i don't know why but she always used to stare at me so i kinda knew she liked me but i suspected she might have been a psychopath after i asked her on her ask one day and she said she might be but not diagnosed(so i knew she probably liked me and wasn't really nervous around her. but i've crushed on less pretty girls and feels uber nervous about making a move(even though i know they like me) am i scared to get intimate or is it my body telling me it wants to be with guys. i've had crushes on girls but i haven't had a real crush since like 9th grade(i'm in 11th now) the reason i'm so worried about this is because i like to browse the internet alot and i remember looking up "can you be gay and not know it" and i came here and i saw how some guys were looking at straight porn and had gfs and thought they were straight their whole lives but then decided to let some repressed desire deep down out and how the brain is really advanced and how it can trick you into believing you're straight. the thing is i have a foot fetish and even though i prefer not to look at guys feet, my mind can't tell the difference between a female foot and male foot from the sole view and i can still get turned on. am i gay?
Not liking those of the opposite sex doesn't mean you like those of the same. People go through phases of course, like not wanting any part in any kind of relationship. Some people are in the phase of discovering themselves and their sexuality. No one can tell you what you like, but you can be guided by your peers and family. But so far, it really looks like you're not gay. It mostly looks like "not really into girls right now." And the foot fetish thing- a foot is a foot is a foot. I don't think not minding it's a dudes foot makes you gay.
